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Hi
Welcome to this poorly made video
with a completely fucked up lighting against a wall
and that's completely not natural.
That's horrible, why did I do that?
Can you see my face correctly now?
(no)
That's shit.
*insert a cancerous and clickbait title here*
Woohhh...
I'm just fucking killing my microphone cable right now.
So
I'm not here to joke. (you're here to joke Ario, shut up)
I just prepared nothing, this is clearly one of my most fucked up video...
*ASMR*
I need to straight my microphone too...
So everybody can hear me.
YOU NEED TO HEAR ME! *fuck ASMR*
So, what was I talking about...
PS: the number of "Euuuhhh" completely explosed
It's actually a new type of video I make rarely, where I just sit and talk to you.
A lot of things happened since the last 1/2 years.
I need to tell you what happened because
I just started to be conscious about this
I just said to myself: "there's a big problem".
I just absolutely needed to make a video about this
Where I just tell you what's the problem.
It's been one and a half year, and there's just nothing that really happened in my videos
I'm not gonna lie, nothing happened since the last 2 years
Hi, my name is Antoine Daniel and I'm posting a video every year.
Cool.
And if I want to make this quick video
(That's not a quick video)
It was an idea that came yesterday
Because some things happened recently
And this things are...
not really funny.
And yeah my chair is broken, that's cool.
(Am I really talking to my chair?)
*fixed*
Sorry.
Something happened not long ago
(I'm talking a lot for nothing here)
Since 4 months, I'm installing myself on Discord
I'm talking with nice people.
And someone caught me, and he asked me if I could help him
to find a story for his text he was writting
On his computer.
So I was like: "why not? It sounds cool."
So I shared my invented story with him
like "that's for you, do what you want."
But some hours later, I remembered what I've done
And I just said: "Holy shit, it was nice."
I was feeling nice during the short time I wrote it
It was cool to write a story, to build my characters and all of this, even indirectly.
I find it was a nice sensation.
And I said: "I would build my own, it looks so cool."
So I did it, and until one week...
Without any lying, I never fell that good in a long time.
What I'm trying to tell you:
First, I don't want to quit music. If you trust that, then you're wrong.
Just don't trust it anymore, this is not what I'm trying to tell you.
I want to tell you something's really simple
or simply more natural.
And I really wanted to talk about it
Because, two years ago...
I wasn't feeling pretty nice in my head.
Even if I have friends, who helps me a lot
(Between I've changed my College last year)
My second grade was horrible.
I was lonely and lost
In an overrated College
With really crappy students who was fapping on their lessons
Who laughts at every different people.
I didn't like it at all.
So I changed my College quickly.
Then I started to be conscious.
I was in a big depression during...
About two years.
I'm actually 17 (near 18) and I started my depression when I was 15, and it ends at the middle of my 16.
I looked at myself and I felt realy bad.
And I started to be conscious about my depression
and I know it wasn't long until I fall if I was like this.
Written: I had a lot of times the real desire to suicide myself.
When I changed my College, then I felt better
I started to have real friends, and then I knew I can have a social life.
And it was nice, I feel really nice actually.
I'm still talking to all my friends, and I'm really nice now.
Now I'm feeling sociable...
But during my old College I wasn't sociable at all.
I spent all my time in my bedroom, playing videogames
It was horrible, I didn't want to go out because I find the outside world sucks ass.
My opinion didn't change, the outside sucks ass
But now I have friends that tell me what sucks and what doesn't.
Now, I feel better
I had not any pleasure making my old videos and musics
For some years, I didn't have any pleasure on YouTube, with my contents...
I wasn't saying: "I'm doing this thing fine."
For me, everything is structured.
If you're doing music nice, you should do music. Same for drawing, writting, cooking and more...
For example:
(If you ever watched My Little Pony you should know what I'm talking about)
In MLP, there's something called the cutie-mark.
This is the thing that any pony have on their flanks.
Who says what's the main task of the pony. (Written: this thing)
And I piss on this example.
I stopped to like it.
Because when I started to write my own story...
and I started to have pleasure doing this, then I just asked myself:
"Why didn't I do it before?"
I said: "Wow, why didn't I do this for me?"
"Why should I block myself?"
During 2/3 years, I was on my computer and I was blocking myself
Just to avoid things I thought I didn't want to try because I was "perfect" in other things.
I was like: "If I try this it will be shit, and I would be desinterested in my main content."
But.. nope.
All I thought is stupid, because I do all my writtings and my music
And I still love both of them.
So this is what I'm saying, and here's a resume of my writtings.
Resume:
A guy wake up in a dark place with a symbol upon his head.
And that's it.
I let you read all the texts (but you can't because the text is only in French). Written: This is gore and not really funny
I still don't know if I'm gonna post the texts outside of DeviantArt
I didn't want to talk about this, but when I started to think about this
Two or Three days ago, I said: "Why did I block myself?"
"Why am I forced to put a barrier in front of me just to contain my creativity?"
But I can't contain it anymore. I want to progress.
I can break the barrier easily.
And I didn't do it.
And now I'm regretting.
Because it deserve nothing to do this.
If you really want to do something
Even if it's only on a short moment.
If you want to do it
Do It.
We don't care about the consequences. If you want to do something legal, then do it.
If you're happy about the thing you're creating, create it. If you're happy about what it will give you, create it.
Just do it. Don't think about the consequences.
You just have to say: "Fuck, I may condemn this, but is it worth it? I can't condemn something I can do.
You can't say: "I will stop that to do that." You can just say: "It may give me something bad, but I need to do it. That's all I can get, but I still can do other things."
I really needed to talk about all of this
When I saw it I just said: "Fuck, I wasted two years in my life..."
Yes, I wasted two years of my life. And I'm ready to regain them.
It's clearly my message of the day.
I thought yesterday I needed to explain to you all what's going on.
Because I actually never really sit on a chair and told you what's wrong in my life, in front of you.
And that's pretty strange...
But I don't care.
I didn't want to do this video but I just said: "There's nothing to lose in doing this. So why not?"
Since I'm born I always have ideas that comes to my brain
And really often, I don't make them true.
Now I know why, it's just because I'm blocking myself, but before I didn't know why I never did them.
Now, when I see all the things I can do in my favorites contents...
I want to do more btw, but I don't have the skill and the devices to make them true, so I'm sure it will be shit to my eyes.
But if I want to do this things nicely, and if I have the devices
Then I need to do it.
Because it deserve nothing to block myself, and saying that "I can't grow more" because I can grow more.
If I'm blocked, then I would not be happy. I would began to be angry and frustrated.
And if I'm not happy, I'm clearly not sociable
Since yesterday, I really wanted to make this video, because it will show why this channel can't grow.
Why did my content is crappier with time but at the same time better and better...
I know why I'm going down. It's because I want to do more and more things, things that I didn't show, or even practice.
You're warned: This is that type of things I want to take and put on my channel one after one.
I don't care anymore if people find it bad.
I just want to say: "I did it."
I don't care about your opinion anymore, because I want to do it. And that's all. This is how I'm happy with my content now.
I will do it with my own touch. And this is what count the most actually.
I just couldn't say to myself: "I do it for me."
But I do it for me now
I do it for you too, to satisfy you all. But I do it for me at first.
All of this just completely fucked me up for the last 2 years
Now it's calm.
Hi, I'm coifing myself in live. How's going?
Your warned: YouTube will begin to be the place where I share my stuff. Written: I didn't say they're gonna be more content. Just better content.
I have a ton of work to complete.
I have an Unlike Pluto - Everything Black remix to finish.
And maybe a new collab, but I'm not gonna show anymore about this...
And there's the story to continue.
All I wanted to say is just: if you want to do something, do it.
We don't care about the other people opinions about it. Just do it.
Because this is not this people who will say: "look at what you're doing, it's bad."
No, I'm gonna say: "What I'm doing is bad."
Until you're in the legality and you want to do things, then do the things.
For example if you want to make a 2 hours animation-
"Fuck my microphone is doing complete shit."
Also...
If you want to make a 2 hours animation movie, will including condemn you're health, but when it's done you're like:
"Wow, I did something great."
If you're really happy about what you've done, then you regrets nothing.
And that's the point, you need to make the things the best as you can do them.
This is unorganized af, you need to see this.
I put the Phantom here
Then the cable is going back under the lamp, beside the keyboard
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Hey, I framed better.
It was the big Point video. Actually, I will not post everything everytime here, because I don't have my finals at the end of my scolarity...
Just a little.
I need to modulate myself too but...
If I have something to do, then I will do it, I will post it, and you will give me your thoughts about this. But I still do it.
Maybe there's gonna be more content, but I'm not saying there will be more videos.
But if there's more, it will be done with more passion, without any precipitations, where I'm just saying "I need to put this out, even if it down the quality".
No, I will put these out one day. Certainly a lot of time after it will be "done", but I will put these out, and I'm gonna be happy.
I just got slapped this last days and it's impressive...
Now actually I'm fine, I will stop all of my old types of activities because I do'nt wanna be in another depression again.
This is why there were constant evoution on my channel the past years.
I needed to stop my depression.
Even if I was not in depression, I was not really happy about my work the past years and I tried many times to solve it.
But I still wasn't in depression. I wasn't like "I need to be angry".
And I was unhappy too.
This depression is btw the reason why I left my social network, one year ago. It was partially a cause of my depression.
And I did it just to stopped to be mad. For 3 years, I was angry all the time. When I woke up, I was angry. When I was sleeping, I was angry. And it completely drove me crazy.
I still wondering how I get into it.
There's still sequels, but I feel really nice now, and that's what matters.
It was the completely fucked up video.
There's all my crap right there.
I did this video in 2 minutes.(It's not true, I recorded 20 minutes, I spent 5 hours on the editing and 3 hours on THIS FUCKING SUBITLES!)
Goodbye.
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