Thứ Năm, 4 tháng 5, 2017

Youtube daily was May 4 2017

- Do you start your day with a coffee?

Well, you could be putting your business

and your mindset at risk.

I've lived in Melbourne most of my life.

It has the best coffee in the world,

and this is backed up according to a survey by Booking.com.

And like most other Melburnians, I enjoyed my coffee.

It's part of a start-up culture for entrepreneurs

to rely on stimulants like coffee

to get us through the day

and provide us with the momentum that we need

to push through major projects on little sleep.

But for me, personally, it came at a cost.

I lived with an agonizing fatigue

that plagued me for years.

And what was a once in a week treat at a cafe,

suddenly became a daily ritual after experiencing jet lag.

And I began to suffer with depression,

dizziness, and extreme fatigue

that would cause me to take two naps during the day

just to get through it.

It was completely and utterly debilitating.

What did I do to try and fix this issue?

Well, I poured more coffee on it,

thinking if I drank more,

it would give me another boost of energy,

to only get that boost and hit those crashing lows.

I was stuck in a cycle, like many of us are.

When more than seven doctors

couldn't work out what was going wrong,

I experimented on myself,

and after three years of painstakingly removing foods

from my diet, I discovered, to my dismay,

that I'm highly allergic to caffeine.

And I know I'm not the only one.

But even if you don't have an allergy,

there are serious health risks that may cost you more

than just your business and a breakdown.

There are a whole lot of studies linking caffeine

to high blood pressure, insomnia, headaches,

indigestion, heart attacks, anxiety

and many more conditions

you probably wouldn't first associate it with.

Remember, after all, caffeine is a drug.

The personally shocking revelation I discovered

was that one to two cups of coffee per day

was enough for me to experience anxiety.

And instead of realizing it was caffeine,

I blamed my business,

which almost cost me a lifetime's worth of work

because I was ready to throw it all in at one point.

Which made no sense to me at the time.

The blame was completely misplaced

as was my anxiety and fears

because of a simple stimulant like caffeine

that we don't have a second thought.

Now, it might not impact on you as much as it does me,

and I hope not,

but do you know what caffeine is really doing to you,

your sleep, your ability to focus

and sustain your energy throughout the day?

If you don't, I dare you to take this easy challenge.

Keep a diary for the next week,

and observe the ebbs and flows of your energy.

Track your reactions,

sleepless night, anxiety, increased heart rate,

that you mistakenly blame as work pressure.

Caffeine wasn't only killing me psychologically,

it was killing my business and as entrepreneurs,

you know, that we all have a propensity

to guzzle down coffee to keep us going.

The question is, what's the real cost to you?

I challenge you to find out.

(mid-tempo lively music)

For more infomation >> A Caffeine Allergy Was Causing Me Depression & Fatigue - Duration: 3:24.

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Zurich on a business trip | Back to Edinburgh via Amsterdam | Day 4 | Eng Gr Sub - Duration: 4:34.

Last day of the conference.

Today is my presentation.

My stuff is ready.

Unfortunately, I haven't managed to find anyone in this hotel, if there's anyone.

So, I'll take my luggage and the rest of my stuff to the conference venue.

It's not a major problem, but I'd rather leave everything here, return, change clothes

and head off to the airport.

My presentation is after the presentation of a...

Greek guy!

You're spoiling us, Mr Ambassador!

I like that they placed apples next to chocolate. Did anyone see them? I just noticed them now!!!

I'm sorry, but I wasn't able to record myself while presenting. Be content with the photo.

I assume, a cycling competition...

I'm going to the train station to go to the airport.

The last Swiss coffee.

The airplanes are taking position, but...

...they're going nowhere, if we don't take off first!

Zurich is beautiful, but tiny. I believe that 3-4 days are more than enough to explore it well.

The Swiss I met were very polite, helpful and they speak English very well.

I'd return with much pleasure. Of course, I'd stay in a different hotel ;p

KLM sandwiches are very delicious.

They gave as a little chocolate gift at the conference.

I don't want to eat the little fox. I feel sorry for it...

It was delicious ;p

Amsterdam looks interesting...

The Greek ID creates me a lot of problems at airports.

A lot of problems is an exaggeration, but they waste my time.

Firstly, they don't understand the language, although it's written both in Greek and English.

I mean it's both in the Greek and Roman alphabets.

They haven't seen it before, and it looks foreign to them.

It doesn't have an expiry date, which it should have according to the Schengen Agreement.

In Ibiza, they wouldn't allow me to board.

Luckily, I had my Australian passport with me, and they let me go through.

In Poland, I almost missed my flight, as they were looking at my ID with a magnifying glass.

They looked at it again, and again, and again.

One staff member looked at it, then a second one, a third one...

Here, they were also looking at it with a magnifying glass for ages.

In general,

yes, I don't have the most pleasant experience,

but I already have one passport...

Does it make sense to pay for another one?

This is the first time I've seen flowers at an airport.

If there was any doubt, I'm in Amsterdam, there shouldn't be any now!

Science Museum. I haven't seen this at an airport before either. Amsterdam surprises me very pleasantly.

Have you ever seen a toilet with 5 hangers???

I'm back to the normal healthy diet tomorrow.

I'm waiting for my luggage. My bus is leaving in 5 minutes.

Let's see if I'm lucky...

Yes!!!

Home, sweet home...

For more infomation >> Zurich on a business trip | Back to Edinburgh via Amsterdam | Day 4 | Eng Gr Sub - Duration: 4:34.

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Video: Mother pleads for info in son's killing - Duration: 2:00.

FRIENDS SAY THAT HE WAS

SHOT SEVERAL TIMES WHILE TRYING

TO GET A RIDE HOME.

>> MY NIGHTMARES ARE SOMEONE

RUNNING UP TO MY SON WITH A GUN

AND SHOOTING HIM SIX TIMES, MY

NIGHTMARES

KAI: ON MARCH 16, SHARONDA

RHODES BECAME A MEMBER OF A

GROUP

SHE NEVER WANTED TO BELONG TO,

BALTIMORE MOTHERS WHO HAVE LOST

THEIR SONS TO GUN VIOLENCE.

SHE SAYS HER SON, 19-YEAR-OLD

MARKEL SCOTT, WAS STILL HOLDING

HIS BOOK BAG WHEN HE WAS FOUND

SHOT IN THE 2700 BLOCK OF EAST

MADISON STREET.

>> I CANNOT EVEN REMEMBER HIM

EVEN IN A FIST FIGHT.

AVOIDED CONFRONTATION, HE WAS

FUNNY, LIKED TO DRESS.

HE JUST MINDED HIS BUSINES

KAI: AND ACCORDING TO SHARONDA,

HIS FOCUS WAS SQUARELY ON DOING

POSITIVE THINGS WITH HIS LIFE.

HE DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL DURING

HIS SENIOR YEAR IN 2015, BUT

RE-ENROLLED HIMSELF THIS SCHOOL

YEAR.

THIS WAS HIS FACEBOOK POST, JUST

EIGHT DAYS BEFORE HE WAS KILLED,

CHEERING HIMSELF ON FOR

GRADUATION.

HE WAS SET TO GRADUATE FROM

EXCEL ACADEMY.

A SCHOOL WITH AN UNFORTUNATE

DISTINCTION FOR THIS SCHOOL

YEAR,

FIVE STUDENTS MURDERED SIN

OCTOBER.

MARKEL WAS THE FOURTH, THE

LATEST WAS KILLED JUST LAST

WEEK.

>> I AM JUST PRAYING THAT

SOMEBODY START SAYING SOMETHING,

AND NOT JUST ABOUT MY KID, ABOUT

ALL THE OTHER MURDERERS BECAUSE

IF NOT, WE'RE GOING TO MEET MORE

AND MORE KIDS AND MORE AND MOR

TEENAGERS TO THESE STREETS,

.

KA IN MARKELL'S CASE, POLICE

ARE STILL SEARCHING FOR A

SUSPECT, AND A MOTIVE.

>> SADLY, THE VAST MAJORITY OF

OUR VICTIMS IN HOMICIDE CASES

ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN GANGS,

DRUGS, GUNS THEMSELVES, AND IN

THIS CASE, WE DON'T HAVE ANY OF

THAT.

>> LOOK, I DIDN'T EVER WANT TO

BE A PART OF THIS GROUP, BUT I

AM NOW.

I AM PRAYING THAT WE GET SOME

ANSWERS SOMEHO

KAI: HER MOM SAYS THAT HE STILL

HAD THE MONEY ON HIM THAT HE WAS

INTENDING TO USE FOR A RIDE HOME-WHEN HE WAS KILLED. SHE IS NOT

COMMITTED TO SUPPORTING -- NOW

COMMITTED TO SUPPORTING OTHER

For more infomation >> Video: Mother pleads for info in son's killing - Duration: 2:00.

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What's in the box challenge - Duration: 1:47.

Hey peeps, I am MR ATC and welcome back to MyATCtv

Today we are taking part in an what's in the box challenge with the waterjet team based in the US

and the nice part is that if they cut the box well, they will end up with a customized handmade

toolbox and also an extra surprise inside from a special place in Europe… I am pretty sure they will like this one…

Ah Ah Ah, let's see what they do..

But before going any further, let's talk about the waterjet team and what they are doing…

So Now that you now what they are doing, we gonna let them find out what's inside…

And guys if you like this type of challenge and would like to see more of those, please let us know in the comments below

and remember to go to the waterjet video just here to see what's in the box…

Of course, If you like it subscribe to MyATCtv just here to see our creative designs and i hope to see you for the next project..

Oh wait, this still has to go to them… Et op la. Voila…

Mr ATC for another idea of housing! see you

For more infomation >> What's in the box challenge - Duration: 1:47.

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SURPRISING MY WIFE WITH HER DREAM CAR MADE HER CRY CHRISTMAS 2016 - Duration: 5:38.

i picked that out by the way i told him what to get daddy give me my credits told me where

to get something we all can't fit in the hallway D'Angelo right whats in the hallway if its

a puppy i don't want it I'm just going to say that

right now i don't want the puppy is it a puppy i aint hear no barking ready?they left it

on the porch?

go you act like you scared *screaming* are you serious bro i told you i told you so you

didn't forget about me i thought you forgot about me pull it out so i can see

your a good young man where is it is that really mine bro kj is in the front seat WOW

OH MY GOSH be careful is this really mine your husband loves you girl oh my gosh what

the heck what the heck boo boo you better not mess it up either you better put some

towels on it i know i know your a good husband its a 3rd row Jas wait a minute did you see

the tvs you need to get out and look wow look this is not so we really not getting my truck

fixed or something for what I'm just confused how did it happen when its a surprise so what

happened to my truck jasmine oh my gosh he's so slick he think he so slick wow go on in

there boo boo look at your new playroom aw i want to drive it...bye go

For more infomation >> SURPRISING MY WIFE WITH HER DREAM CAR MADE HER CRY CHRISTMAS 2016 - Duration: 5:38.

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SHOOT RULE: What to consider? [ENG SUBS] - Nuke Airsoft Austria - Duration: 6:13.

Hello and welcome everybody to another Nuke Airsoft Video

Today we're going to talk about the so called 'Shoot'-Rule

This recent facebook post regarding the 'Shoot'-Rule has sparked a lot discussions and controversy

What can I say opinions were divided and tempers were lost :)

But on a serious note: Let's investigate the so called safety kill rule a bit further

and let's talk about general 'Airsoft-Etiquette'

First things first: A lot of you may know that my local field the 'Airsoftpark Tirol'

has no such thing as a safety kill rule* ... technically

And we recently postet this image of one of our teammates who was shot in the face point blank

asking if this was really nessesary

And this sparked a really intense discussion with lots of different opinions

Everything from: People that don't use the shoot rule shouldn't play airsoft

to: who doesn't use good enough face protection shouldn't play airsoft

Pleas note that this shouldn't be a discussion about right or wrong

and I don't want to criticise anybody's play style

So please don't feel offended!

I think you all know what a 'Safety Kill Rule' is if not here's a short explanation:

If you encounter another player on close range (most of the time anything within 5 Meters)

you shall shout 'Shoot' (or similar)

instead of pulling the trigger

The opponent shall accept the 'Safety Kill' and go back to respawn without further discussion

The sole purpose of this rule is to prevent unnecessary injuries

since everybody is responsible for their individual safety equipment

and not every player is always aware of how important proper safety gear is

Of course the interpretation of this rule varies from airsoft field to airsoft field

My favourite airsoft field for example technically has no such thing as a 'Safety Kill Rule'

however there is a so called 'Shoot-Recomendation'

which urges players to use their common sense

'If somebody puts his gun to your head from point blank range and yells SHOOT'

'then you say thanks and leave the field without discussion'

That's how it is practiced in the Airsoftpark Tirol! Some people like it some don't!

Of course airsoft is kind of a 'contact sport' where people get hurt sometimes

but since every player is responsible on his own for his safety gear

filed owner need to find a suitable compromise for everyone: The 'Safety-Kill' Rule

Now there are always people saying: stop crying around

if you don't want pain then don't play airsoft!

But I honestly think that airsoft should be for everyone and just because I don't mind getting shot point blank

I can't expect everyone else to think the same!

Now here's the main message I want to spread:

I want to appeal to your attitude as an airsoft player

especially if you're playing on a field that doesen't have a 'Shoot-Rule':

Ask yourself before you start playing:

'Would I want to get shot with my own gun at point blank range?'

Then take a look around on the field and look at all the other player's gear and ask yourself:

If I had to wear the facepro of the guy/girl next to me, do I have to worry about getting hurt if

someone shot me in the face point blank

And then you can decide for yourself wether you say:

'I don't care about the 'Safety Kill Rule' neither for myself nor for others'

or if you risk someone not taking the 'Safety Kill' and shooting me even though I was technically right

but in the end not having to worry about hurting people by accident

and not getting accused of playing unfair

And if a questionable situation arises then just call a referee and sort everything out

but never say: 'If you don't like the way I play then quit airsoft and start playing laser-tag'

Thats the completely wrong approach IMHO

And also if someone 'Safety Kills' you then just accept it even though it might have been a questionable situation

You can always come back after respawn and get your 'revenge'

I could be that easy

I want to urge every airsoft player out there to not take the hobby too serious

and to just try to stay cool even though you think you are right

As I already said everyone has to decide individually how he/she wants to play but always keep in mind to

stay cool, stay fair and use your common sense because in the end of the they we all want the same thing:

Enjoying our hobby and having a good time with our friends!!

Thats what every airsoft player has in common and we all can work a bit more towards each other

to make sure everybody on the field can enjoy the hobby and have a good time

Let's talk about individual responsibility

YES you are responsible for your OWN safety gear

and if you fail to wear proper safety gear you should expect accidents to happen

But again the point is how do you define what proper safety gear is?

I can't expect everyone else to wear equally good gear than me

a beginner for example may think that a scarf is enough to protect his teeth

because he simply doesn't know any better!

Is it fair to say in this situation:

This is all your own fault, if you don't like to get your teeth shot out then don't play airsoft!

We all were beginners once and we all didn't know any better at some point!

And it is also in your own responsibility not to shoot people in the face and not to overshoot people

Now I hear them saying again: This never happens to me

I always aim center mass and I only use my pistol inside buildings

But be honest to yourself: Accidents happen to all of us ... I notice this myself all the time

I would generally consider myself a pretty fair player and I stick to the rules as best as I can

However I've got almost all my gameplay on video and in hindsight I notice quite often

that this was less then 5 meters or that I pulled the trigger once too often

or that a BB went towards the head because the player moved in the wrong moment

Most of the time you actually won't even notice those things in game and usually they aren't that tragic

but those situations can easily lead to accidents and this happens to even the very best players among us

That's it (finally :D) feel free to leave a comment with your opinion

Maybe the opinion in this Video is totally wrong but however please keep the comments respectful and fair

I hope I'll see you again next time!

For more infomation >> SHOOT RULE: What to consider? [ENG SUBS] - Nuke Airsoft Austria - Duration: 6:13.

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Do you believe in reincarnation stories? - Duration: 5:08.

If our body dies will we continue to exist?

Will Fifty years of research give an answer to that? Keep watching

Hi, I'm Heathcliff and this is Lions Ground.

I hope you have a fantastic day.

In 1967, Ian Stevenson of the University of Virginia began the study of life after death.

With this research, he studied hundreds of children who claimed to have memories of previous

lives.

Stevenson has deepened in years in past lives, near-death experiences, deep meditation, out-of-court

experiences, deathbed visions, communication with deceased persons and other states of

consciousness.

Recently, the colleagues who took over the research about life after death.

Stevenson's research reached several scientific magazines and he wrote some books about this

mystery.

During the conference Dr. Jim Tucker of the University of Virginia, who studied 2500 cases

with regard to children with memories of past lives.

For example, Stevenson described a series of cases in India where the evidence is difficult

to explain.

Some children have birthmarks or birth defects that are linked to deadly injuries from previous

lives claim Tucker.

So, there was a case of a girl who remembered a life in which she was a man whose fingers

were cut off before being killed.

The girl was born with deformed hands as displayed in the pictured.

Or a boy with memories of another life where he lost his fingers through an awful accident.

The boy was born with a deviation on his right hand.

Tucker also took a boy as an example that has memories of a previous life who was shot

with a shotgun in his head and was born with a malformed face.

Dr. Tucker also explained that they can say with certainty that this does not only occur

in countries where they believe in this phenomenon.

Tucker then explained that most cases are reported by parents who never believed in

it.

He called an American boy as an example that can remind his former life as a war pilot,

or the two-year-old James Leininger who always has the same nightmares.

According to the boy, he was in a burning crashed plane.

Eventually, the stories became too detailed for someone of such age that the parents of

that boy began to believe in reincarnation.

With the fact that he revealed who died in the plane, namely fighter pilot James Huston,

at Iwo Jima during World War II.

Another fact the boy knew the name of the aircraft carrier on which Huston was stationed,

but more convincing some names of other crew members.

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So join the club, visit patreon.com/lionsground Click the videos next to me to watch more

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I sincerely want to thank you for your time watching this video, it's really appreciated.

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For more infomation >> Do you believe in reincarnation stories? - Duration: 5:08.

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Why the Fort McMurray Wildfire Was Nicknamed "The Beast" | Still Standing - Duration: 3:09.

For more infomation >> Why the Fort McMurray Wildfire Was Nicknamed "The Beast" | Still Standing - Duration: 3:09.

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What is MetaMorph? - Duration: 5:02.

Hello and welcome to the Firefly Studios round table discussion.

It's the first one we've ever done and today we're going to be talking about MetaMorph: Dungeon Creatures

which is our first action strategy game. Today, I'm discussing the game with:

I'm Paul, Producer of MetaMorph.

Jack, I'm a programmer on MetaMorph.

I'm Andreas, 3D artist on MetaMorph.

The best and brightest at the project.

So, we're going to be talking about the fundamentals of the game, explain what it is and to start out, let't talk about what is MetaMorph?

So MetaMorph is a brand-new game for Firefly. Rather than a castle game it's an action strategy dunegon crawler.

The core idea is that you've got a team of heroes - you've got 3 to start with - and what you do in the game is, you can morph between those heroes.

So you select the right hero for the right situation you're presented with and essentially that's how you get through the game.

We're going to throw loads of levels, loads of enemies and loads of bosses at the player and it's going to be a really challenging, fun, intense game.

Jack, who are the heroes in MetaMorph?

The 3 heroes that we're initially releasing, which are the Rabbit, the Fire Nymph and the Ice Ogre.

The Rabbit is a general, neutral type, used mainly for utility and quick movement around area,

so it's kind of "Oh, something's coming to attack you" and you can quickly dash away.

The Fire Nymph is more offensively based, great against ice based enemies, she's more of a ranged fighter than anything else.

She can throw projectiles, she can throw a nice little grenade area of effect attack as well, so she can launch a grenade across,

it would explode in the back and then kind of clear out a path so you can travel through.

And then you've got the Ice Ogre, who's more of, suppose a bruiser would be the archetype he'd fit into,

so he's quite strong, he can take a lot of hits, he's got a great area of effect ability, the Rock Fall as well, which is quite nice, so he clear out this area of weak enemies when needed.

And will those be the only heroes in the game or will we be adding more sort of post early access release or after launch?

As development goes on, we will be adding heroes at various points throughout the time in order to change up the archetypes

so people can change up what they're doing in the game.

So instead of running through previous levels, maybe you can improve what you did in that level and switch up the team a bit.

So you take one of the new heroes and go "Right, I'll try this team and see how it goes."

I love that the game will revolve around that meta gameplay.

Who are the boss characters, the lords of death that these heroes will be banishing from the dungeons? Andreas?

The theme we have for the bosses is the seven deadly sins and each one of them will represent one of those sins.

The first one you'll come across is the Butcher and he will be representing gluttony.

As you advance through the dungeons, you'll get to meet every boss a few times before you get to the next boss

and they'll gradually get harder and harder. They all have their own mechanics, so it will be very unpredictable every time you meet them.

Every time you fight them will be different and during the fight they'll change mechanics as well, so you can't just brute force yourself through them.

You can't just go and kill them, you'll have to watch them, what they do, and react accordingly in order to beat them and you'll probably die a lot in the process.

One key question is: What sets MetaMorph apart from earlier Firefly games?

So less about the gaming scene in general, but more about how it's different from Stronghold, CivCity, Space Colony and the more traditional base management games that we've done in the past.

Obviously, Stronghold is a deep strategy game, the players that use the best strategy win.

So there are massive differences, there are some similarities and each is important.

What we want to do is make a strategy game which has its strategy roots back to our games, it's just on a different level.

Instead of controlling an army, you're controlling one of three characters or a team rather than an army. So it's kind of different, but there's a lot of synergy there with our old games.

Some DNA in there.

Oh yeah, definitely.

Why are we going early access with MetaMorph?

MetaMorph is slightly different from the normal games we do.

We're traditionally known for our castle RTSs, so because MetaMorph is a bit of a departure for us and experimental

so rather than just putting it out there with no community feedback, we think early access will be a chance for us to get people playing it

and they can give us feedback and we can adjust the game according to that feedback.

So it's a great way of communicating directly with the players that we think this will be aimed at and fans of our games that will hopefully transition over from strategy RTSs to action strategy games.

I'd just like to thank Jack, Paul and Andreas who have talked to me about the game and I'm going to let them go finish the actual real work.

Like, share and subscribe if you want more MetaMorph content and stay tuned for the next few weeks with more videos.

For more infomation >> What is MetaMorph? - Duration: 5:02.

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"she even told me that i was abusing her emotionally." | Blahtherapy Chat Recording #15 - Duration: 4:14.

You helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Venter hello

You So! What would you like to talk about?

Venter all my life ive been struggling with intense paranoia and insecurities. no i have not been diagnosed officially but it doesnt take a trained person to understand that im just a ball made up of anxiety, insecurities, low self esteem and self hatred. im afraid that people are going to harm me. i have trust issues. i need to be constantly reassured by others but even if they do reassure me i always keep on asking for more and i tend to get very intrusive thoughts.

paranoid thoughts that friends dont like me or that lovers are cheating. it is ruining my life and everything good i have. my girlfriend left me. because of that. this is like the third time this has happened.

this time it feels so much heavier though. i really liked her. really wanted to get to visit her. we were long distance. at first she told me to never change. that she understood. it did always hurt her that i found it hard to trust. but she kept on reassuring me. then she snapped. got tired of it. cant blame her. she said she cannot live with it. she cant stand me. 1 minute she threatened to leave once.

a couple days ago we got into an argument again. i told her i just want her to be happy. so if i make her miserable she should go. go be happy with someone who is not problematic. she has not talked to me since then. just now my birthday is on sunday and our 6th month celebration would be on monday. and it seems like i wont get to spend either days with her.

You give me a moment...

Venter of course im sorry for the "2 minutes" stuff. its because i copy pasted the things and apparently the timestamps were copied too.

You i'm aware. Well, thank you for sharing all this with me. What would you like to do about all this?

Venter i dont understand that question.. you're the second person who has asked me what i want to do. and what i want to do is i want for things to just go well for once. but obviously that isnt happening.. i dont see how what i want matters in this situation

You You informed me what happened. That's venting, that's what I come here expecting. If that is all you wish to do, i'm all up for it! And just so you have a 'goal' in your mind, that you want to achieve, I thought I should ask that question on what that 'goal' is. What you want, is the 'goal'. If you don't have a 'goal' to work towards or achieve. Then things are going to be the same. And you'll be piling up more content to vent about, in the future.

Venter my goal is to get better. but i dont know how. i know i have to love myself and accept myself. but its a bit hard to do so when everyone walks away. i am comfortable in being alone, i have no problem with it. i just feel like i have spent too much time on my own.

i need someone to be close with. someone who is going to accept me even if i let them feel the entire weight of who i am. someone who isn't going to love me and tell me to never change for the first couple of months, and then when things get rough tell me they cant stand me and cant live with me and just up and leave. she even told me that i was abusing her emotionally.

You Are you to someone, like you want someone be to you? I'm sure she was honest in how she felt.

Venter i am very loving. very loyal, very sweet. very empathetic. a good listener. someone whom people trust easily. a person people often go to for advice. or to talk to about their problems. my problem is that amongst all those good qualities i also struggle with the intrusive thoughts, with the insecurities. and i guess after a while it gets tiring for people around me to have to reassure me all the time. no one wants that right.

i know she was honest, but it hurts when she says that. i never meant to abuse her. i dont consider myself abusive. i dont get off on hurting her, or anyone. i am tired of doing this to others and to myself

You "improving your life improves the life of everyone around you." When you live an unhealthy life, specifically in your case, a mentally unhealthy life. Then it is only natural that you would be a mental burden to people around you. For someone to accept you like that, won't be your partner. They would be a psychologist to you, and you would be their patient.

The best thing to do would be to be happy and healthy first. Once you do that, you won't be 'taking' from your partner, but rather, you would be providing for them. As you said, if you don't know 'how' to get better. Then that's what you'll have to do. Figure that out.

Venter i would think that my girlfriend would understand how i feel when she tells me she cant stand me. i thought she would know better not to do that. considering that her previous relationship her partner would always tell her she is too tiring and too depressed and too annoying. i thought she knew just how bad it feels to be condemned and abandoned over something you literally cannot control. someone's appearance and mental issues is not something they choose. no one wakes up in the morning and chooses to be insecure.

i agree that i should get help, but right now i am not in a position to go to therapy. things are not good financially and i just cant. it just hurts. especially since all this happened right before my birthday. yet another birthday i will have to spend on my own.

You That is an issue you see. You are thinking about yourself, not your partner. That is how relationships go wrong, they go wrong when you think about yourself, and not the other person. You wanted her to understand you, yet you don't understand her. If you do understand her, and trust her that she is a rational person who makes rational decisions... then why might you be hurt by her decision???

I'm afraid you are responsible for your mental health. You being sad being alone on your birthday, can be compeltely different, if you change how you perceive birthdays and what they mean. For me, 'birthday' is a day when I go to my mother, and tell her "thank you. Thank you for giving birth to me." After she passes away, it would be the day I would go to her grave and pray for her. My 'understanding of birthdays' allow me to be happy, even when no one is celebrating it. That is something in your control isn't it?

Your partner has disconnected.

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Trump Comey 'the best thing' that happened to Clinton - Duration: 2:19.

Trump Comey 'the best thing' that happened to Clinton

BY NIKITA VLADIMIROV

President Trump on Tuesday said that FBI Director James Comey was the "best thing" that ever

happened to his 2016 Democratic opponent, Hillary Clinton.

"FBI Director Comey was the best thing that ever happened to Hillary Clinton in that he

gave her a free pass for many bad deeds!" Trump tweeted.

"The phony Trump/Russia story was an excuse used by the Democrats as justification for

losing the election.

Perhaps Trump just ran a great campaign?" he continued.

The president's remarks came after Clinton earlier Tuesday blamed her loss in the presidential

election on Comey and WikiLeaks' publication of emails hacked from the Democratic National

Committee and Clinton campaign chairman John Podesta.

�If the election had been on Oct. 27, I would be your president,� she told CNN�s

Christiane Amanpour at a Women for Women event in New York, referencing the day before Comey

sent a letter informing Congress that the FBI had discovered new emails that appeared

pertinent to an investigation into Clinton�s handling of classified material.

�I was on the way to winning until the combination of Jim Comey�s letter on Oct. 28 and Russian

WikiLeaks raised doubts in the minds of people who were inclined to vote for me, but got

scared off,� Clinton said.

�And the evidence for that intervening event is, I think, compelling, persuasive.

And so we overcame a lot.

We overcame an enormous barrage of negativity, of false equivalency and so much else,�

she added.

Comey will be back in the spotlight Wednesday morning, when he testifies before the Senate

Judiciary Committee.

It�s the first of two hearings for Comey this week � on Thursday he will appear before

the House Intelligence Committee behind closed doors as part of the ongoing investigations

into Russia's meddling in the election.

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800 Pounds Weight Loss Journey ! - Duration: 2:06.

Mayra Rosales has lost 800 pounds since the TLC "Half-Ton Killer," star previously

weighed 1,000 pounds, according to TV station KTLA.

"I was dying," the star told the media outlet.

"I don't know if you had seen pictures before – you could see it in my face.

I had given up in life.

I was alive but not living a life."

Rosales first came to the public's awareness after being accused of accidently "crushing"

her eight-year-old nephew to death, which was reportedly "a lie to protect her sister,"

KTLA reported.

She gained nationwide attention after TLC documented the case in the television program,

"Half-Ton Killer?"

Prosecutors eventually dropped the charges against Rosales after determining she had

lied to protect her sister.

Rosales explained that at the time, she had given up on life.

"I was dying.

I don't know if you had seen pictures before you could see it in my face.

I had given up in life," she told the television station.

"I was alive but not living a life."

Confined to her bed because of her weight, Rosales felt like she was a prisoner.

But about 7 years later and 800 pounds lighter, she has a much different outlook on life.

She was able to lose the weight through multiple surgeries — including a lap band procedure

— and dieting.

She is 30 pounds away from her goal weight, the station reported Wednesday.

Whereas she once lived to eat, Rosales told KTRK her perspective has completely changed.

"Food to me is I have to eat to live … it's just something normal," she said.

Rosales hopes sharing her story will encourage and motivate others who are struggling with

their weight like she once did.

Her advice to them: "Do not lose hope and keep fighting because we only have one life,

and it's well worth fighting for it."

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Kate reveals Princess Charlotte sang happy birthday to herself: 'It was so sweet' - Duration: 2:30.

Kate reveals Princess Charlotte sang happy birthday to herself: 'It was so sweet'

The Duchess of Cambridge's daughter Charlotte had a "little party" for her second birthday.

princess Charlotte is the cutest!

Her doting mum Kate has opened up about how the family celebrated Charlotte's second birthday

earlier this week, revealing that they had a low-key party on Tuesday.

The young Princess, who turned two on 2 May, even treated her loved ones to an adorable

rendition of Happy Birthday.

During an engagement at a farm in Gloucestershire, Kate spoke to a group of schoolchildren who

were learning about the day-to-day running of a farm.

Their teacher Natalie Graham explained that the children had given the Duchess a birthday

card they had made for little Charlotte, as well as a toy Paddington Bear.

Miss Graham said: "She told them that they had a little party for Charlotte yesterday

and she sung Happy Birthday to herself!

It was so sweet.

She loved the card and present and said Charlotte would love it too as the card had Peppa Pig

on, which she loves."

The Duchess bonded with one little girl in particular, nine-year-old Sayanna, who speaks

Spanish.

Kate revealed that her daughter Charlotte and son George are learning the language and

three-year-old George can already count to ten.

The young royals have a Spanish nanny, Maria Teresa Turrion Borrallo.

"She said she is trying to teach Charlotte Spanish and said her son George can count

up to ten in Spanish already," said Sayanna.

"We also told her how we found all the cameras a bit strange but she said although it was

weird she had got used to it."

Prince William's wife spent the afternoon at a farm in Arlingham, Gloucestershire.

The farm is one of three supported by Michael Morpurgo's charity Farms For City Children,

which aims to give inner-city children an understanding of farming, the countryside

and food production.

The group of schoolchildren had come from Vauxhall, London for the day.

Tessa Stone, chief executive, said of the visit: "It's been a joy to have her for four

hours.

She spent quality time with the children and she was fantastic, you can tell she can really

gets it.

Having had a childhood experience growing up in the countryside, she appreciates how

crucial it is."

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This Disabled Army Veteran Was Honored With A Brand-New Home | Southern Living - Duration: 5:30.

Joe is an incredible dad, he's an incredible husband.

He's so full of life, his goal is to, you know,

to find the problem and fix it, and encourage you again,

you know, to kind of pick you back up,

and get you to where you're laughing or happy again.

I met him when I was 19.

We just started dating, and it was amazing.

And I was like, I don't care what I have to do,

beg, steal, lie, cheat, whatever I have to do,

I will, I will marry this woman.

We've been married over 10 years now.

I joined the military, the US Army, July of 2000.

(calm music)

April 8th, 2008.

We were coming back from a mission with the Iraqi military.

Our four vehicles, we hit a roadside bomb.

I was the gunner of the vehicle.

Our Humvee doors were like bank vaults.

It took off the front of the Humvee,

it went through the driver's side door,

it struck Major Rosenberg, and since I'm higher up

on the gunner, went through him, my legs, and

then out the back, left door.

Blew the door completely right off.

Both of my femoral arteries were severed.

I was bleeding out, I was dying.

I needed to do something, I needed to, I needed,

I didn't want to die.

So I started tourniqueting my own legs.

(calm music)

I remember feeling so helpless.

To know that, here I was, halfway around the world,

and I couldn't hold his hand and tell him,

whatever's gonna happen, we're gonna go through it together.

Joe had called me, I was so relieved to hear his voice.

He asked me how I felt about it, and I said,

well I think I'm still in shock.

And he goes, "Oh, you're in shock, do you have any idea

"how much blood I lost?

"I'm the one in shock!"

And she told me, she was like, when he messed

with me on that, like, joked about it,

I knew he would be fine.

And I said, don't worry about the legs, I'll get new ones.

When he came back from the hospital,

he came back with prosthetic legs,

and he has running legs, a lot a kinda legs.

Most of my problem is nerve pain.

I have nerves that run up and down my leg,

and it's on fire, and they never stop.

When I first stood up, it was on my right leg

with crutches, and I wanted to cry,

it hurt so bad, it was so painful.

(calm music)

They told me that Joe was gonna be gettin'

the game ball, and they wanted to surprise him.

They said that they wanted to go to the

Titans game, they'd give you a game ball,

and I was like, yeah!

You know, I'd never been to a football game, ever, actually.

It was a huge rainstorm that day, and we got drenched.

And I was gettin' ready to leave the field,

'cause I wanted to dry off, and get my kids out of the rain,

and they go, "Hold on, there's one more thing!"

I'm excited to announce that they are partnering to

provide a custom-built home, for you

and your family, here in Nashville.

I lost it, I mean, I, you couldn't tell

'cause of the rain, but I was in tears,

my wife was in tears,

my kids were jumpin' around goin' crazy.

It was a very emotional moment, though, you know,

to see the look on his face...

It's gonna be a grand dedication.

(cheering)

Thank you for what you've done,

welcome to your finished home.

(cheering)

James family, welcome home!

Aw, wow, girls, look at this!

Oh, they have pictures of us!

Oh, that's amazing, look what they did!

Oh, no way!

Oh, look at this!

Oh my gosh!

Melanie, watch your shoes!

Like, when I walked in, it felt like home.

I know, this is so beautiful.

Oh, look at the kitchen, Oh my gosh!

Look at the kitchen!

Ah, oh my goodness, Jarin. (girls chattering)

Oh, wow.

Oh, (laughs) oh, my gosh. (Jarin laughs)

It's comfortable.

(laughs) Oh my goodness! (children yell)

Wow!

You have an upholstered headboard,

layers of bedding. Wow, wow.

Lots of storage space.

The way this whole room looks, this is more

than we have ever thought of, and it's so beautiful.

As we kind of went through the building process,

one of the really big things I was excited about

was having a fireplace, 'cause, we'd never

had a good place to hang up our Christmas stockings.

And I walked in today, and, I'm gonna cry thinkin' about it,

they had stockings, already lined up along the mantel.

And, I think I lost it then too.

Okay, I have to hug you. Oh, thank you!

This was way more than we've ever, ever imagined.

I'm in shock over it.

All of these organizations worked together

to make the most the most amazing home we've ever seen.

And we are beyond blessed to be able to be in this home.

And we're just, we are so grateful,

and we love every one of you.

Thank you so much. Thank you.

(happy music)

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we should leave our lovers {multicrossover ypiv] - Duration: 4:19.

'Cause I don't... I don't belong in a world where we don't end up together.

I don't.

There are parallel universes out there where this didn't happen.

And whatever universe that is, that's the one that my heart lives in.

What I want

is never to see you again in my life.

Your name does not belong on this list.

Because you aren't every other guy.

You're different.

And I didn't deserve to be with someone like you.

I never would.

Doesn't it ever occur to you just how different we are?

You're the perfect girl next door.

I'm the damaged, loner outsider from the wrong side of the tracks.

You forgot!

Four hundred years, is that all it takes?

I moved on.

Where?

Where can you be now that you could forget something like that?

You've been gone.

I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't want that.

You've been gone.

I love him.

And you made your choice.

So there's the door.

If that's what you want...

No matter what I feel for you, I...

I never unfall for him.

I don't think I could ever forget you.

I need you to know that I understand.

I love you.

I will love you forever.

Stay the fuck away from my girlfriend, you got it?

Let's go.

I don't wanna see you.

I don't wanna be with you.

- Fucking asshole! - Hey!

- Come one! Hey! - How could you do that to me?

What did you tell him?

He's dead.

I'm begging you, please.

Bring him back.

Bring him back and take me instead.

And I owe it all to him.

You take one more step we are done.

We are done.

I miss you...

And I really wish you were here.

I'm just trying to do the right thing here.

I said I did.

Wasn't that good enough for you?

I can't be with you.

You've got something good here.

With her.

There's all kinds of ways to feel lonely.

Is that you?

Please, say it's you.

I don't know.

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President Trump Responds To Hillary Clinton's Blame mongering - Duration: 1:16.

President Trump Responds To Hillary Clinton's Blame-mongering

by Tyler Durden

Following Hillary Clinton's earlier proclamation that she "was on the way to winning before

Jim Comey's letter and 'Russian' Wikileaks... scared off late voters," it appears President

Trump has his own perspective on how he won the greatest upset election in US history...

"FBI Director Comey was the best thing that ever happened to Hillary Clinton in that he

gave her a free pass for many bad deeds!

The phony... ...Trump/Russia story was an excuse used by the Democrats as justification

for losing the election.

Perhaps Trump just ran a great campaign?"

We leave it to Hillary to conclude this brief blamescaping with an admission she made later

in today's interview...

"I take absolute personal responsibility.

I was the candidate.

I was the person on the ballot."

Indeed you were.

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