What does the circus mean to me?
It's the job I love.
It's the people who are around me.
It's my life, my relatives,
it's everything that I hold dear and that I cherish and love most.
People should always be under the impression it's all easy.
That's an artist's task, to work so that no one would notice anything.
But not all moves come easy and quick to me.
I simply love my job
and I think my parents raised me well.
So no genre, no move, nothing seems like an impossible task to me.
If I'm asked to do something, I'll just do it.
I had a spinal cord injury. A third lumbar vertebra fracture.
I had to wear a corset for six months.
Doctors forbade me from doing physical exercise,
stretching and straining my back.
But that's all we, the acrobats, do in the circus.
So it was a real tragedy for me.
I cried and my Dad comforted me, 'It's ok, you'll train puppies'.
I was like, 'What puppies? I'm an acrobat, no puppies for me!'
Then I became an animal tamer, too.
I worry very much if we fall out with my Dad or my Mum.
Any rows, and I'm in a twit.
Then, I come to them and apologize. In our family, we trust each other.
You're bugging me, with the pole.
Watch yourself.
I do watch myself.
You yank the pole out from under my feet.
I'm pulling you back.
Yanking, not pulling. It's not the same.
- Elementary! - Exactly. F*cking elementary.
Exactly, Sabrina.
Make an effort and do it.
I've made at least 15 efforts in the last minute.
What was that about? We haven't even started.
Sabrina, you have to make an effort.
Make an effort and do something, then talk to me about progress.
- Are you fed up with me or what? - Shut up!
No I won't.
You're annoying me.
I think you're annoying yourself and taking it out on me.
Are we doing something else or just sitting here?
- Doing something. - Come on, get up then.
How many times have I suggested rehearsing a column.
'No, my back hurts. No, that.' So here is the result.
If you don't rehearse, you won't do a good job.
To perform well, you have to gruel yourselves.
Circus is all about hard work.
It's uncomfortable for me. I'm standing here,
and I constantly have to stoop to you.
Yes, that's why.
Phil!
I have a degree in stage direction.
Now I'm getting my second degree. I'm studying law.
Enrollment was open. It was after I got my first degree.
Dad phoned me and said, 'Do you want to have a second degree?'
I said, 'Always and everywhere, I want, I can and I will'.
I was accepted.
The hardest thing for me in studying is sitting during the whole lesson.
It's unbearable for me to sit on a chair.
I can't do it, it's a torment.
I do this and that, I change my posture.
Everyone squints at me all the time,
'Why can't she just sit? Does she have a problem?'
I just can't... For me, it's just...
It's the main thing I should work at.
My back starts to ache.
I don't feel comfortable. I feel the need to raise my legs.
Or something... I don't know. I need to move.
There are people who give up fast.
There's a difficulty, and they immediately give up.
If it's a no, let it be so.
I'm the opposite kind of person. If there's a difficulty, I overcome it.
Like when my boyfriend and I broke up. No one knew. I said nothing to anyone.
I wanted to be by myself.
But I had to work. So I worked with tears in my eyes.
I just turned away. There's a curtain off stage.
It was my cue to go to the arena. I was all tears.
No one noticed, because I turned away and I was warming up.
I quickly wiped my tears, but I couldn't stop crying.
But I still needed to be by myself.
I needed my own atmosphere, some peace and quiet, my reflections.
You can't do anything like that when you have to work.
It's not the spectators' fault that you have issues but you work.
And then, entering the arena, you cry. But you get distracted for a moment.
You're on stage and in character.
But this circus act lasts 6 minutes, but during this time
you make such an effort not to switch, not to let your thoughts wander off,
to concentrate only on the job and so that nothing distracts you.
You can't help it at the moment because you're feeling it.
You're working and you're feeling it.
And you don't work just as a formality,
to tick the box.
Because it's your shift this day.
You must be totally in character.
I think if I want something, I can do it.
You can't want something and do nothing about it.
You have to want it and act.
That's the right approach, eh?
Every goal consists of small steps toward it.
For example, to build a house, to buy a flat...
These are earthly possessions that are necessary, too.
That's what I want. But for that, one needs to work a lot
to earn a lot to be able to afford a lot.
The goal I have to achieve is to become the best of the best.
It should be recognized, not just that I believe I'm the best,
but others should say that about me.
So that it would be acknowledged, and not empty words,
but proven in deed.
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