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This is how Quran defines the names of Allah

هُوَ اللَّهُ الَّذِي لَا إِلَٰهَ إِلَّا هُوَ الْمَلِكُ الْقُدُّوسُ السَّلَامُ الْمُؤْمِنُ الْمُهَيْمِنُ الْعَزِيزُ الْجَبَّارُ الْمُتَكَبِّرُ ۚ سُبْحَانَ اللَّهِ عَمَّا يُشْرِكُونَ

"He is Allah , other than whom there is no deity, the Sovereign.."

This is what our brothers and sisters need to understand the most.

When it comes to worship in this world, then it ONLY belongs to Allah

Including bowing, prostrating, seeking help, seeking refuge, seeking forgiveness etc.

This is only ordained for Allah which Allah has fixed to Himself.

Therefore, DO NOT do any act of obedience to someone which is only ordained for Allah

E.g. worshiping or praying to someone alongside with Allah, or calling for help..

This is what SHIRK is!

Regardless of whatever mighty status that person has. The act of worship is only to be done for Allah.

We are taught to recite the Kalimah, the creed of Islam, the Shahadah in our childhood which reads:

لا الہ الا اللہ محمد رسول اللہ There's no deity except for Allah Muhammad is the messenger of Allah

Meaning in the WHOLE universe there can never be a single diety who should be worshiped.

A Phoroah, An Emperor, A King or EVEN if He is a Prophet of God. He can never be worshiped.

Only ALLAH deserves worship!

..and if someone mistakenly associates any parter with God, bowing down to a temple or shrine ...

..then no doubt he or she has also called a sanction of God upon him or herself.

Allah has clearly said, he can forgive ANY sin except for Shirk.

Therefore, if a human being regardless of what religion they belong to should keep it in their minds..

.. then never should he or she do an act of worship to someone else other then the ONLY true un-seen God.

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The Core Of What It Means To Be A Writer - Adam Skelter - Duration: 5:53.

Adam Skelter, Author/Story Artist/Screenwriter: It's interesting, the other day I went to

this bookstore…this cool experience I had yesterday.

Film Courage: There's one left?

Adam: I know right? This little used independent bookstore over in Atwater Village [near Hollywood/Glendale,

CA]. And I walked in and saw these beautiful typewriters of these Remington's that were

reconstructed and painted (beautiful) and I was drawn into it.

There was this woman, she was writing on it. And I wanted to buy one but I was checking

it out and she says "These are my typewriters."

And I say "Oh? Are they are on exhibit?"

She says "Yeah, they are on exhibit and I'm actually a poet. I'm doing kind of

an exhibit."

I say "What kind of poet are you?"

And she goes "Well I do this thing where I'll look into your eyes. You can tell me

a word or a theme or something and tell me something that is relevant to you and then

I'll write a poem for you and you can just pay me whatever you think it's work."

I was like "That's amazing! I have to do this!" It was very cool.

So there was this phrase that was going through my head earlier in the day of outrunning ghosts.

It's just an interesting idea and so I mentioned that.

She looked at me for a little bit and I could see the wheels turning and there's this

kind of unique connection and then she turns around, it's a small slip of paper into

the Remington and she starts typing and she starts out with the first "Outrunning ghosts

of love" she wrote.

And then she started writing this poem. It just flowed out of her and she almost ran

out of space and she says that rarely happens because something connected and I just worked

and she pulled it out and said "Can I read it to you?" I was like "Yes, of course.

It's even better." So she read it to me and I was surprised that genuinely moved me.

I love poetry. Most poetry is awful. So I'm a little skeptical when it comes to poetry

but I wanted to hear it and she came from such an emotionally open place when she wrote

about it. So she started writing this thing that genuinely moved me. My eyes teared up

and she realized that she got emotional from it as well.

What was amazing was that she was actually tapping into something that was deeply relevant

to me personally and I think that right there is the core of great writing which is that

she opened herself up emotionally and she delved into her own subconscious in a way

that she was able to extract this metaphors that resonated with me in a very, very deep

way.

We don't know each other at all. Her name is Jacqueline Suskin [Author, Performance

Poet, Speaker] and I just remember because she signed it and put her name on the bottom

of the poem. It was this beautiful experience where just but engaging the metaphors that

were relevant to her she spoke to something that I needed to learn and experience and

that to me is at the core of what it means to be a writer, it's at the core of what

it means to be an artist. It's at the core of what it means to engage those metaphors

and so what we're trying to do as writers (screenwriters, novelists, storytellers, short

stories, whatever) we're trying to delve into that meaningful place, that vulnerable

place and in some way diagnose or identify or even just express some conflict through

the metaphors we are engaging and that's where we find the meaning…The Anatomy of

Chaos.

Film Courage: Do you think she's empathic (poet)?

Adam: Definitely. She was showing pure empathy. I'm skeptical when it comes to supernatural

things and things like that but whatever metaphor she was dealing with or that she was drawing

on spoke directly to me in a really beautiful way and I think great writers can do that.

When I say great writers I mean…I think everybody should be writing. It makes us all

better. It's like [Kurt] Vonnegut says "Go write a poem. It will make you a better person."

But great writers are able to tap into that subconscious in such a way that they'll

speak to a human experience that connects to all of us.

Film Courage: It's interesting because you said "Ghosts" and I just finished Every

Love Story Is a Ghost Story: A Life of David Foster Wallace [Author D. T. Max]. It was

all about his life. Adam: That breaks my heart.

Film Courage: I couldn't read the ending. It was too sad. I started to get very angry.

He was so talented. It was such a waste and I was very upset and couldn't read the ending.

But I read the beginning and the middle [parts of the book]. It's an interesting concept

of ghosts as well. Because in some sense is that all we're seeking is just this like…just

how she [Jacqueline Suskin] wrote this poem, this empathic experience through what we watch

or what we read? What we are looking for, what we're watching to basically tell us

about ourselves? You brought up the word ghosts so, it had me wondering.

Adam: Yeah, that's beautiful. David Foster Wallace [raises his glass to toast].

Film Courage: Okay…sorry.

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Arsenal vs Fulham TV channel: What channel is Arsenal vs Fulham on New Year's Day? - Duration: 2:40.

 Arsenal are under pressure at the start of 2019 following a rough string of festive results

 The Gunners were toppled by Southampton and destroyed by league leaders Liverpool in the Premier League following a strong run of early-season form

 Boss Unai Emery must reorganise his troops following the 5-1 drubbing at Anfield with Fulham set to visit the Emirates today

 Speaking after the loss, the Arsenal manager said: "We only can think now about the match on Tuesday, not the difference between Liverpool and us

 "We have a lot of work to do. Defensively also we know we need to get better." Emery has been forced to deal with a host of defensive injuries in recent weeks, but he must find a way to patch up his team in time to face struggling Fulham

 The Cottagers secured a narrow 1-0 win against bottom side Huddersfield at the weekend but Arsenal know it's a game they must win to keep up the pressure on the top four

 Express Sport has rounded up all the details on how to watch the game below.Arsenal vs Fulham – how to watch Unfortunately, as the game is a 3pm kick-off, Premier League regulations dictate that it cannot be broadcast live in the UK

 Supporters can tune into a special midweek Match of the Day on Wednesday, January 2 at 22:45pm

 Dan Walker will present highlights of all the New Year's football action on BBC One and BBC iPlayer

 Fans in the US can watch live coverage of the game via NBC Sports Live.Arsenal vs Fulham latest odds The Gunners are heavy favourites to emerge victorious despite their recent run of form

 Fulham will take heart from their three-points against Huddersfield, but Arsenal are a very different proposition

 Arsenal – 4/11 Draw – 4/1 Fulham – 7/1 (Odds from Skybet)

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What is he saying?(98) (Listening Practice) [ ForB English Lesson ] - Duration: 2:25.

Hello everyone and welcome back to ForB's English lesson video.

My name is Richard and today, I'm going to say something three times quickly

and I'd like you to guess what I'm saying.

Are you ready?

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

Did you catch it?

Alright, let's try that again, but this time with hint.

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

Did you catch it?

Alright, let's try it again but this time a little bit slower.

Are you ready?

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

Did you catch it?

Alright, the answer is "The event was called off."

The event was called off.

Alright, so in the word 'event' the 't' has a soft sound.

So it sounds almost, like it's not there.

The event was.

The event was.

And 'called off' is combined, so together it sounds like 'calledoff', 'calledoff'.

Alright, 'called off' means cancelled.

So in this case, the event was cancelled.

Alright, let's practice that together.

First slowly, then a little bit faster after that.

Please repeat after me.

The event was called off.

Great, now a little bit faster after that.

The event was called off.

Great, now even faster.

The event was called off.

Great, now let's try that three times quickly.

So, please repeat after me.

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

The event was called off.

Great, so now you know how to pronounce this expression.

My name is Richard.

Remember to please click like, share, and subscribe and I'll catch you next time.

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Christian Prince - Adultery is not what you think - Duration: 10:24.

Hello

Hello

Hello, yes, hi GP Emma Franco

Yeah

Just I I want to start with saying that you know, I'm I'm a Christian

I was born Christian, but I'm not the best of Christian

Right, and I was dating that Muslim girl and I wanted to confirm everything you said about

adultery in Islam

Like I was dating that girl and

At the certain point she wanted me to convert to convert into Islam. Hmm. We had like

Long discussions like maybe it went over two years where she was trying to convey to convince me

Converting to Islam and I would like counter with the Bible she would

interrogate your question my Christian faith and you know

Everything that is on the Bible and I would try to show her the truth

compared to what Zakia NAIC or any other apologists would say

But in the end after a couple of years like she realized that you know

It was really even even though I'm not a Christian who grows the church and those those things

She realized that yeah, I was I was never gonna convert

Okay, then she all of a sudden she got married and told me well I got married

I was like, how come I mean we grew up together. I know you you know me

You know, you're a smart girl and you're kind of feminist. How did you come to that point? And well, she's a Muslim. I

Kind of knew that but I thought it would happen to any other woman but not her

Well

Anyway, my friend, hold on. Hold on. Whoa you see ya for me?

This is this is have nothing to do really with my topic. Let me tell you why because

There is many people who are in the world and you yourself

You said you are not a Muslim a Christian who practice it at all so we can judge the Christianity by you, too

We can't judge Islam by her too. So we have to be okay

We here we judge Islam by the founder of Islam not by a girl. Her name is Fatima in the street

Allow me so you experience it might be good or bad. It doesn't matter

This is not really my issue

if this is Islam teaching then the problem is different if this is what she is doing this is different, so

We cannot judge we don't want to be hypocrite when we say, okay. There's our Muslim women

She is a whore we want to say. There is many they claim to be Christian - they are a whore - right?

So, ok. This is not the way to judge any belief or any faith

We judge Muhammad Yunus learn by Mohammed was Muhammad a fornicator. Yes was Muhammad the founder of Islam teacher fornication

Yes, so we cannot judge if a Muslim they do theater what Muhammad he says

They are just followers not they are not the one to plane

That's exactly where I wanted to come. Okay, if you give me a minute, it's because like

Like I said don't don't judge me because I'm not a Christian or or anything

You know, I'm not a Nazi I'm saying you are you're saying that it was no white partition etcetera

Okay, I because you helped me understand her behavior. Okay?

I was dealing with a Muslim woman and

She got married and told me I got no and then well she got in touch

She kept keeping in touch with me and one day she came in my house and then well we had oh everything but I didn't

Have a penetration the same way you you explained like having in and now you know, I get the point now

I got your point. Oh now now I told her okay

Now you're telling me you know, you were asking me to convert you're having that existential problem. But what you're doing here is adultery

and

She goes like no

I'm like, what are you talking about? You ask you you have a husband you came on your own into my apology is married to

yeah, what the heck and then you came I mean

The same as that women exactly you see I apologize from you by the way keep everything my friend doesn't apologize from you

I thought you are going to tell me a story in this story. I wanted to do my job, but you like a story. Yeah

Guys have to see what he's saying

If you were saying this is the same story happened with Mohammed and the guy has named a pal tomorrow the women there she is

Married, she came to the man the man he played with her everything

He does with the woman with the women except intercourse and this is the story here happening with our friend here

Go ahead et all of us all of a sudden when you when you told a story I exactly Rachel I was like dinner

this is exactly what she was doing and she knows Islam because she tried to convert me and and I was like, you know not

100% religious but I believe in God, I believe Jesus. I'm not gonna convert. I know Islam I grew up in an Islamic country

but the fact that you told me this is not

Adultery

Was like I was like, whoa and

It's at that very moment that I realized that the difference between

Christianity and Islam is moral standards. Yeah, so it's not we don't share the same definition difference. Yeah, they

Might share use the same words

We say a daughter II but for them a daughter is different as you see even if the women she is married guys

Did you hear this is exactly what happened with Muhammad and the guy the man he came to Muhammad

Say the women she is married and Muhammad. He said to him maybe her as her husband is doing jihad

So the Nutri is married and now Muhammad is not worried about that. He did not even punish the man for that

He said oh, don't worry. This is a small sin so you can you can

According to Muhammad you can invite a married women to your house

She get naked and you do, you know like you know, whatever, you know

As long as you don't do intercourse you are a good guy. This is a small sin. Don't worry. Be happy

No matter no matter how bad a Christian you are my advice to you is like you

Need to realize that

Christians and Muslims do not have them same moral standards a Christian when he is getting involved into law

like even a

And agnostic, but who was born in a Christian community would say I'm engaging for life

You know, I'm here for love and I mean God or not God I will give myself hundred percent

But the Muslim woman would have a different view

Choose Scott giving herself and at a certain point you stop it and ask me to become a Muslim and to recite the Shahada

You know, my point is I'd never recite the Shahada now, I'm not doing that. I don't believe in that not doing that

I'm not asking you to become a Christian. I will love you the way I can love Danette the way I know how to

Write but if

Now you went to the point where you came and did that and said this is not adultery. I don't know

What is a lot what is adultery in Islam? That is the question and

That's where I joined your point

and I really encourage you you're doing a great job you even helping me become a better Christian because I was not

like I said, I was born in a country where like

95 percent of Muslims, I grew up like a Muslim boy

Just defending my Christian faith. Like I was like, okay, Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus, but I

never even

realized that it was not

It was not possible for a Christian boy

to marry a Muslim woman like if I take Corinthians 7 12

24

All right

Well, my friend anything. Thank you for for sharing your experience

Yeah, thank you

man of us all of us and all of us we are sinners and we are not putting you nobody can come against in a

way to send all of us with us and nobody can claim that he did not do sin and

Me talking to you doesn't mean that I am better than you, but there is a huge difference between us

promoting sin and

Fighting's in Muslim they promote sin. But they think this is the way to live they say to us Islam is a

Lifestyle, okay

You know as you see a married woman going inside the bed of somebody touching her kissing her playing with her private parts

She's playing with his private part. It's fine if you don't have intercourse in

Vagina that is not a Daughtery which mean if you do intercourse in the wrong position, it's fine

You know if you do intercourse in the wrong location

And without saying where that is not it's tell fornication only intercourse in the vagina

What kind of a cult this cult is?

And as you see here the story Muhammad a man coming to him saying to him I did that with a married women

Did Muhammad say to him shame on you with Muhammad rebuke him? Did Muhammad say this is a big sin. Don't do that

He said don't worry. This is as mrs. Lemon. Is that a big beer? That's not CP story

I leave it like I lived it live in there or a girlfriend. Yeah

Thanks. Thanks for your help. Thank you for calling. Take care. Good. Bye

So can we compare between the teaching of Christ and the patient of Muhammad we cannot it's an insult

It is an insult

Any have a comment

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What About All Those Businesses Charging $10 $20 A Month, How Can We Keep Up? - Duration: 3:49.

Okay, so this is really cool.

I had a customer asked me the other day about whether or not they should try to

compete with these other gyms that are coming in that are $10 - $20 a month.

Now there are a higher-end gym. They offer classes,

custom, personal training,

nutrition. They offer everything,

but they charge like $150 to $200 a month.

They also have childcare. And so how do you try to justify your

business when a cheaper competition is out there and you think you should

compete with them? Well,

I told her, and this is one of the biggest things

that I've learned being an industry is you can't compete with the cheaper

prices. You need to be the business that

remembers the person's name. That's easiest way to explain it.

So when it comes to your pricing, you need to keep it high.

You need to keep your customer service high.

You need to be the person that, that customer knows when they walk into

your facility, they're going to remember you.

You're going to remember their name and you guys are going to continue always

being there for them. So number one is the relationship that

you have to keep with your customers.

Now when you're dealing with the relationship that's remembering their

name, they're sending them personalized text

messages are following up with them on their birthday,

remembering their workout schedule, knowing all about them,

their personal life, and being the support system for them.

So when they think of their gym or their business that they're going to,

they know that you're going to be providing the support that they need to

see the results. So when they go to a cheap facility or

someone cheaper or your competition, they're just doing it because for the

lower costs, those are actually the customers you

don't want. You want the customers that will pay

more for the results. So that's going to be tip number two is

results.

So this should be your key is getting the customer the results that they're

looking for and that they need. Um,

and the reason they came to your business in the first place,

they go to the cheaper competition that the competition is not going to care

about them. They're not going to remember their

name, they're not going to be focusing on the

client's results like you would. So as a business owner,

you can charge more, you can offer a better service and you

can focus on results, and then from there,

use those results to get referrals. So one thing for a lower price,

a business, their customers are not raving fans.

They're not going around talking about how awesome this businesses,

they're just doing it just to do it right for the lower cost,

but when you have someone paying you more,

you're creating relationships, you're getting them results.

Now they're going to start giving you referrals.

That's going to be a tip. Number three is the referrals.

Now you have referrals coming in this way.

I know you. We've created a relationship.

We've worked together. I know all about your goals,

what your needs are. Now I've accomplished you and helped get

results. Now that I've done all of this for you,

we have a really good relationship. I can ask you for that referral.

I can say, do you have any friends,

family or coworkers that you can refer and come into?

Our business, so with a more expensive business,

you can have better results, better relationships,

and more referrals with your customer base,

so I want you to think about this coming into the new year,

a really focus on providing those good results,

remembering the clients' names and most important,

having the best customer service. You have the best customer service.

You're going to blow away the competition.

Now, I want you to remember those aren't your

clients, the people that are looking for the

lowest cost or the ones that are not going to get the best results,

so don't even worry about them when they're ready,

when they're ready for results, they're going to come to you.

Thank you for watching. I hope you guys have a great day.

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2019 Taoyuan Countdown Party - Lee Gikwang Performance Cut (Dreaming + One + What You Like) - Duration: 11:17.

Without further ado, let's welcome the next member of Highlight, Gikwang

Hello

What's up Taiwan!

It's been a while and those who came to look for me and even cheer so much for me, thank you very much

So many of you.... Came

And for inviting Yoseob and I to such a meaningful event, really thank you very much

Happy New Year to everyone

And I hope that you will be even healthier and happier

Okay, keeping up with this mood, we will be moving on to the next song

Let's listen to What You Like

Thank you Gikwang

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So 2018 Wasn't Great | Life Update, What Happened and New Year's Resolutions [CC] - Duration: 21:05.

I'm back!

So this is like a "life update new year's resolution roundup new year's

resolution setting kind of" video thing. So I haven't been around on YouTube much.

Uhh this year has been... [pause]

Just a big old nope for this year! There's been good

things you know, there's been some really amazing things I got to do or be part of

or go to and they've been great. Just that the bad things have been so so bad

they kind of like eclipse a lot of the good stuff. Some lowlights include I

basically had to take someone to court - it was their fault -

I had to go through the whole legal process, it took about six months. They

weren't cooperating so I had to escalate it and escalate it until I set a court

date, then finally he got settled out of court

like before we both had to appear (I won by the way). But that wasn't - that was not

fun to go through, that was really stressful and horrible and also I had to

deal with the thing that made me have to take them through the process and like

push them towards court anyway. I can't go into details because I don't have a

lawyer on retainer, so it's probably not smart for me to do so. That's kind of

kind of all I can say. There was some really bad people in my life, I'm still

upset thinking - just thinking about it and like, mentioning it because they were

so toxic and horrible and they had such a big role to play in my life at the

time because like they just had to and they were awful like I'm still - I'm still

recovering. I will probably need to find a therapist to deal with the

after-effects because it's been months and I'm still affected. They're now like

completely cut out of my life basically - took one of them to court!

As far as I'm aware I will never have to see them again or

speak to them again but it was really bad. Obviously that affected my mental health

a lot - a lot a lot! I had a couple of breakdowns, there was a really bad moment

but I have a support network, I'm okay I'm fine, honestly. I got so worn down

that my mental health was starting to affect my physical health as well, so

I've now started passing out on the tube which is not fun! I've also had like some

other symptoms as well so I'm gonna have a go to a GP soon get myself checked out.

I'm genuinely doing a lot better, I've got my support network my

mental health being a lot better, I'm out off a lot of toxic situations, I've got

my hoops on! So since we're kind of like reviewing this year I might as well

watch back my new year's resolution video and review my goals, most of which

I have failed! It's not looking pretty in my defence, I had a lot going on - a lot

- A LOT - too much! Also my priorities changed a lot throughout the year and just

watching this video in preparation to record this, I'm like a completely

different person now. So I've got the video here on my laptop-

same laptop, more stickers - so let's go!

Past me: I want to learn how to code

Present me: Did I learn how to code? I did not. I was doing it at the

beginning of the year but I found out it's really hard. Like, really hard to do and

it's a great skill to have, it's really super valuable to have which is why if I

ever had issues arising where I would need like fix or code something, I'mma

hire someone to do it rather than me being like "oh I've done a course online

and then having a tinker around a background that that will

probably not turn out well I wouldn't put me in charge or anywhere near any

code - why would anyone put me in charge of any code? I'm probably gonna

refresh the basics but I'm not gonna make it very high priority and I'm

not gonna be like putting it on my CV anytime soon.

Past me: I want to get better at maths

Present me: Again I tried with this one, I actually really tried I tried a couple

of websites, from the one the government issued to one my friends gave me

access to. None of them worked for me - I mean they were either really badly built

or they just weren't applicable maths. One of them I used - they kept trying me

to use the app that they built and I hated it, I just wanted about to like

learn how to do maths I can apply to my life and instead they were making me do this

stupid app thing that calculates for you and I was like I'm not into this!!

So it just frustrated me so much that I just kind of like gave up!

Trying another website soon though it's called Khan Academy which was

recommended to me so I will give that a go. Also! New discovery! So I've always

kind of struggled with maths and I was like "oh I'm just bad at it, I don't have

the head for it, I'm too *creative*" because that's kind of what you're taught in

school. That either some people have the gift for maths and some people don't -

which is bollocks because it's a skill. That's all. It's a skill you learn but

looking at how I react to having to do maths and thinking about

it as though they were symptoms, I think I have something which I can't pronounce

it's called dyscalculia. Essentially it's dyslexia but for maths. A lot of things

do check off like difficulty with mental maths, difficulty holding numbers in my

head, difficulty applying maths concepts to money,

I'm very easily lost when trying to do maths problems,

I have trouble understanding place value - so with like decimal points, it kind of doesn't quite

make sense what the number is where the decimal point is - I don't quite know how to explain it!

Very slow, very anxious about maths and I still count

my fingers in order to work something else. I'm just there like [mimes counting on fingers]

Currently I'm not sure if I have this - I don't know how I would actually be diagnosed and I

don't know what value it would have bring to me if I was properly diagnosed

but there we go. Also there's not a huge amount of

research into this issue so I don't know what to do!

Past me: now the other language I'm

gonna learn is French.

Present me: I pushed at it on and off but ultimately it's going to

have to become a lower priority or just hit pause on that skill set because as

much as I like - I genuinely just love the language and I've always wanted to learn

it - but I don't need it in my day to day life. Learning French doesn't mean as

much personally to me as it would if I was better at Cantonese and Mandarin.

I only have so much energy and time and need to focus it on Cantonese and

Mandarin. I really sad to be giving up French but it's for the best.

Past me: Also gonna try and perform at more poetry night because spoken-word

scene in London is just beautiful.

Present me: I did perform at more poetry nights!

I did some really big stuff and cool stuff. Earlier on in the year I had my Barbican Young

Poets showcase, so my collective and I, it was essentially our final end of the

six-month program performance show thing and it was one of the most

beautiful experiences because all these wonderful people you've been

around for six months and you're all so close and you love each other so much

you're all there celebrating yourselves and each other and

it was just so beautiful. Another thing I did, which is one of my

most favourite memories ever, I did a show called A Change is Gonna Come. It was

a collaboration with Barbican Young Poets and Boy Blue Entertainment who is

this amazing hip hop dance group who are also based

in the Barbican Centre and we collaborated and we kind of like fused

our poetry and dance together and we performed at the pit theatre and it was

great! It was so amazing, seeing all our work meshed together in such a short

amount of time as well and created something really really beautiful and

really really special and I'm so proud of it everyone. I'm so happy I got to be

a part of it, and it like changed a lot of things for me for the better.

I also headlined a show called the Jazz Verse Jukebox - that is one of my

favourite nights in London! It's jazz music and it's poetry and if you perform poems you

can have the band on with you and they improvised music to go over your poems!

What happened was I went to one of the nights, I got pulled out of the box

for the open mic, got on the open mic and apparently did a really good job! So much so

that the host then came to me afterwards and said "I would love for you to

headline", and I was like "YES! YES! YES! I mean I think about it".

And of course I've been doing a

couple of open mics here and there. I'm now feeling much more confident and I've

been starting to ask people "are you looking for hea liners because I'd love

to headline your night" so that's been getting some positive responses so far!

I'm going to try and push more and talk to some friends

and see how they have managed to do it and maybe I'll be headlining more shows!

Life has been terrible, but poetry? Great!

Past me: I want to make 3 pieces of art this year

Present me:I did not make 3 pieces of art, I made one. Better than none! So I think

on New Year's day actually, I did some self-portrait photography - I'll put them here -

They were inspired by Robin Torkar (I believe that's how you pronounce his surname)

aka PixlPit who is this great animator and he's Jacksepticeye's video editor. He just

takes these gorgeous gorgeous photos and there was one that I was really inspired

by and I just really wanted to like create pieces inspired by that. Those are

sound like my favorite photos I've ever taken

I took maybe 300 - 400 photos across two sessions to get these shots but I think

they turned out reading really great and I'm really really proud of them!

I'd love to do more interesting shots like that but I will think about it and

get back to you!

Past me: I want to make more of a YouTube channel

Present me: Ah, YouTube. That's a thing, isn't it?

So as you have noticed I have been very

absent from YouTube. Sometimes two or three months pass between uploads.

Life got in the way, motivations disappeared and I just didn't!

Also I really fell out love doing BookTube videos - that is a topic for a

different video - but I just really wasn't enjoying it. I remember I filmed a video,

I was bored filming it, I started editing it and I was bored editing it and I was

like "why am I doing this? Why am I making this video, why I'm making these kinds of

videos?" and I just stopped. I don't mean BookTube videos overall, I

mean stuff like you know TBR's, Wrap Ups etc. They're easy videos to film but they're

not fun for me to make, so I stopped as you can tell. That's a topic for another

video. If you have questions or thoughts on that, please let me know in

the comment,s I will read all of them.

Past me: I want to actually exercise this yeah

Present me: I kind of exercised! So back in my old place I joined a gym and that was actually really

good, I was like "I don't hate it!" I was terrified of the weights all the

time, I went on it like five or six times because, I don't if you've noticed, but

I'm very small and just tiny me in this massive machine?! I look ridiculous

and I feel ridiculous and I'm just there like pulling at the littlest weights!

We're now near a 24-hour gym, I've got a membership so I'll be going to that

Past me: I want to travel more.

Present me: So this was a resolution I thought I'd fail but this

is the resolution I completely smashed. I, myself and some people close to me, we

went to Bristol, I've been to Exeter, I've been to Brighton this year. I only needed

to travel to three places this year to achieve my goal and I already did that

just UK-based and then I also got a job that involved a lot of travel.

So this year I've been to Boston America, Singapore and Hong Kong which was pretty

awesome. It was for work and it had its own... issues. But it's been amazing to go

abroad because I wouldn't have been able to afford it otherwise. But I got the

opportunity to, so that was a perk. I still haven't made it to

Scotland but I really really hope I will in like spring or summer so Marta, I'm still coming for you!

AJ: I'm going for a hefty chonk

[Marta dies laughing]

Marta: Do you see what I mean?? It's endless comedy!!

Marta: I'm so tired!

[Christy clicks light switch]

Christy: That was the wrong light!

[Marta laughs]

Marta: oh my god that's going to be so smooth!

Past me: I've written down "call home more, you little shit!" [laughs]

Present me: I did call home more! So what I did was I set a calendar reminder every Sunday, 8pm.

It would go off and I would have to call home. I didn't call home every

single week because, as mentioned before, sometimes when I wasn't doing very well

mentally, I was just like "I don't want to talk to my parents, I don't want to call home

I don't wanna talk to anyone" but generally I have been calling home more, which has been nice.

Past me: I will fix my sleep this year

Present me: GUESS WHO DID NOT FIX THEIR SLEEP THIS YEAR?? (points to self)

I went through a bit where I thought I fixed it, so I was going

to sleep at midnight and waking up at 6:00 and I was like "oh I need six hours

sleep then, that works out, that works out with like the REM cycles and whatnot" and

I felt fine and I thought "oh, I finally cracked it!" And then after a while my body started

saying like "noooooo" and then it turned out I needed 7.5 hours sleep actually.

Also sleep patterns are so delicate, they're so easy to break, they're so fragile and

you can just snap 'em like a glow stick. I've also been having a lot of anxiety this year, when

l'm going to sleep and when waking up. It's just - you just wake up and you're

like "OHHHH THE ANXIETY IS HERE" and you go to sleep and "OHH THE ANXIETY IS BACK".

A big symptom was like, feeling this awful tightness and pressure

in your chest, so the only thing that really resolved it was - let me make an introduction.

This is Dog. So I got this cuddly toy when I was

maybe 12 or so and he's been in the wardrobe for a long time. Even though I'm

in my early twenties, I need to sleep with a cuddly toy. Also this toy dog is

named Dog because - this is the kind of child I was okay - I just thought it was

ridiculous to name your cuddly toys and give him like a real human name so I

just didn't, I just refused to name it. He's been across the world with me and

has been helping me sleep and has been providing a lot of comfort!

Past me: I will be posting a mid-year update in August to reassess all these resolutions.

Present me: [snorting and sarcastic laughter] mid-year update! [more laughing] That did not happen!

Ok, so 2018: bonfire, trash fire, multiple fires but hey 2019 is happening!

I mean it's just a date, it's just a year

but you know what? I need hope, okay?? I need it.

I've set myself some new goals. I think two - three - big issues I had with my resolutions was

that I knew what I wanted but I didn't put work in. I didn't know how to, I

didn't put the systems in place except etc etc.

2: my mental health played

a big factor in 2018 [clicks tongue] thank you! and also I need to just simplify, really simplify

my resolutions and goals so I actually focus on what I want

and know that it's okay if my priorities change. Anyway - goals for 2019 - here we go!

Learn the phonetic alphabet for realsies this time! I'm actually gonna make it my

screensaver on my phone.

Maths! Might actually get better at maths

in 2019! I don't know, we'll find out! I'm gonna go through the Khan Academy

website and figure out if there are like modules and whatnot and set a

concrete goal of "complete certain amount of modules by what time etc.

Improve my Cantonese and Mandarin! I don't know how to set concrete goals on this but

I'm just gonna like hack at it a few hours per week and see how that goes!

I wanna do more poetry nights! Not just open mic but headlining as well! I'm

gonna be bold and brave and knock on some more doors.

I'm gonna get back into

my side Instagram for TwiggedBeauty. I want to hit 2,000 followers - I know numbers

are just numbers and following counts doesn't matter and all that stuff but I

just want to set a goal for myself so 2,000 followers it will be!

Make more art

So I finally kind of figured out what kind of art I want to do now. Basically I

painted this back in 2016/2017? I don't know? But I painted this - you might

recognise this from my "My Difficult Relationship with Art" video that's but I

just really love cityscapes and I love this kind of like floating city on a

rock kind of concept thing, so I just want to stick with this style and

obviously make it better and a bit more interesting. Also a big thing

was that I didn't want to make art and then just have nothing to

do with the art afterwards like I'm not going to hang it up because I don't feel

like that's something I'm uncomfortable doing, just painting and then hanging my own

artworks everywhere, it feels a bit obnoxious for me to do - no shade artists

who do do that because your art is amazing -

I just don't want to do that for my own art pieces. I want to start putting prints up on

Etsy because that's something I've never done and it would give me a

purpose to like push the artwork, like the art would have a place to go afterwards

I've got some amazing friends who do do art and make prints of them

and put it up on Etsy so I'm gonna message them and see what I can do.

And if it sells, it sells. If doesn't sell - [shrugs]

Probably will also do something like

painting time lapses as well to put a channel

YouTube! I'm gonna try and get

back into it a bit more because I do love filming videos, I do love anything I

do love putting them out there and just like interacting with responses and

things like that, that's a huge thing for me, I love interacting with responses so

please do comment, that's kind of why I'm here

I've also got some

collaborations coming up which is really exciting for me.

I want to bake a cake. Just the one cake -one cake and then my resolution is done. What kind of cake?

I don't know, I just really want to bake a cake and do the frosting and stuff and

just make a cake! I'm such a domestic goddess!

Get 7.5 hours of sleep a night

because that is what my body needs so might as well actually listen to it and then

maybe finally my sleep will be fixed!!

I'm gonna try and go to the gym twice a week

I wanna get as healthy as I can now because it will pay off in the future.

The final big resolution: I've always wanted to start a podcast. I've been thinking

about it like all of this year. It's time to actually do it because there's not

actually a huge amount stopping me it's just me

fussing out being like: "I don't know when a good time to start

would be" - just do it. So, podcast - it's coming.

Thank you all very much for watching, I'm sorry I've been away, but you know I have to take

care of myself. Please send me good thoughts and wishes for 2019 because I

can't have another year like 2017 or 2018 - I don't - it's just - I can't!!

Thank you all so much for watching I wish you all a very very happy New Year and all the

best to you.

Take care, byeeee!

For more infomation >> So 2018 Wasn't Great | Life Update, What Happened and New Year's Resolutions [CC] - Duration: 21:05.

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Arsenal fans will love what Unai Emery has picked as his 'best moment' of 2018 - Duration: 2:39.

 It was a whirlwind 2018 for Unai Emery.  The Spaniard started it in France and led PSG to the domestic treble before swapping Paris for London in the summer after being chosen as the man to replace Arsene Wenger

 His first seven months at the Emirates have been mixed, with a 22-game unbeaten run having been followed by some poor results right at the end of the year - including a 5-1 mauling at Liverpool

 But on the whole it's been a solid start to life in north London for Emery and he admits taking over from Wenger was the highlight of a memorable 12 months

  "We start a new New Year and I feel very good with how my first few months in England went," he said in his programme notes ahead of Arsenal's game with Fulham on January 1

 "I am feeling very good here and every person is helping me to feel good in my work and also in my life

It's positive.  "My strongest memory of 2018, and the best moment for me, was when I signed here at Arsenal

But for me every day is important because my philosophy in life is that every day you can enjoy working, you can enjoy with good moments and with bad moments also

 "So I enjoyed all of 2018 and especially when my new challenge started at this club

"  Emery added: "I hope the new year will give me a new challenge here for improving with the team, with the club and also I want to find this improvement with doing something important for the club, for me and the players

 "In every competition we can play with this ambition and I also want to enjoy every day in my work and also here in London

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