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I actually had... I was actually going to buy a webcam with the money I got

because the webcam is down there so often if I lean back comfortably it's

like hey welcome to the show which is not a negative thing I don't mean that

like that in a fat phobic kind of way but the thing is it's like this is actually my face

but in order for you to be seeing or me be seeing my face as it is like this

is it I have to sit up a little bit which is

not very... it's not gonna happen, so I'm like ehhhh. I called a crisis hotline when I was in a

state of crisis guess what they're not trained to talk to disabled people

dealing with systemic ableism and like chronic medical ... like chronic medical insomnia.

alright. hello lovely peoples I am Michele, a narwhal! this is my hospital bed

Avita and you're watching One Spoon Left with Rebel Wheels NYC and today is

a different kind of video if you follow the show then you know I rarely do hauls

nothing against hauls but I'm poor so I don't do a lot of shopping lol, but it just

so happens it's around the holidays and my mom gave me a gift card and so you know

what? 2018 has been a really really tough challenging at the core level kind of

year, I thought you know what Michele have have a little bit of fun so a quick

story as to why 2018 sucked, also warning this video is gonna talk about

suicide feelings and medical trauma and ableism and just all kinds of stuff I

don't really talk about this topic very much because... traumatic...

a little traumatic on the traumatic side of traumatic-ness because it just really

got like... sometimes... and leave a comment if you can relate to this, but sometimes things

get so... fucked up and you're just like... why?! why must things get to that level of

fucked up-ness. so it happened was in 2018 I got dysphasia.

dysphasia is when you are unable to swallow food and water and liquids

unless it's at the perfect consistency which is very very tricky to...uh, achieve I

was going to say perceive, but achieve is the right word you do not get the liquids and/or food at

the perfect consistency, you choke which makes eating and... which is a necessary

human thing, really fucking stressful because... I need a hug. it was horrible & scary & I didn't like it.

now people, what I found that when they get dysphasia they go into like rehab centers and they get like

speech therapists and they get a whole team of doctors that help them you know

work on getting the perfect consistency the proper diet & nutrition and you know

work on regaining the muscles to swallow it all all those other stuff right

however my primary doctor for some fucking reason, and normally I speak

glowingly about him, but he really fucking dropped the ball and he

basically told me well you have dysphasia, just drink a lot of smoothies and see me in

two weeks and left me on my own to figure this shit out and things got bad

I mean as it was I have a lot of digestive issues and dietary intolerances

so that or was already making eating a bit limited and you throw this

in and it was just... just why?! I went a month probably eating about under a

thousand calories a day. and then my brain, maybe it's related I don't know, I

grew a second brain cyst... that fucked shit up. also start getting a lot more spasms

during that time bladder spasms, sexy. spine muscle spasms and as a result of

all these things, I developed chronic medical insomnia from I would say about

two month period where I barely was sleeping. now I

thought for sure that I was going to die because how the hell can your body

subsist? survive on such a little sleep to a long period of time?

apparently it can, but it doesn't go very well. you know it was really hard for me

because I could not figure out how to take care of myself. it got to the point

where I just wanted to die. wanted to die. (slow mo) wanted to die. it's not so much that I wanted to die, I

just didn't know how to else to get relief. I guess I associate death with

relief. and what made it even harder was the fact that I had these home health aides at the time

and they would say this shit to me like you know if I was depressed or scared

"don't cry. it could be worse" which just totally fucked with me even further

because now I'm battling all these different things, I'm in a near state of

like... near constant like sensory overload because I'm not sleeping, and my body is all

dehydrated and starved and all this shit and then but... but god forbid I'm scared

about that or I feel sad it's just that I had like spent all this time doing

acrobatic moves in my head trying to like validate my own goddamn valid

feelings. so about like a month or two months of this, my body was just so worn

down that it started to get a lot of these like persistent spasms. like I was

spasming in the digestive area and spine and there's a shitload of pain in the back

of my head where that second cyst I grown, but uh it's like his arm was just like

going like this [spasm motion] sometimes for hours at a time and I ended up in the hospital and

the hospital was of no use. the fact that I grew a second brain cyst, they're like "oh,

that's nothing. ever see a psychiatrist?" now things are doing a bit better. I

sleep 'cus I have a hospital bed so that my, my spine spasms have stopped I know how to

manage my dysphasia. technically, I did get money for my birthday, when I was in the

hospital, but really I mean I was so depressed that there was really nothing

that I could think of to get and then also once I got out of the... of the

nursing home, I needed to spend my money on like paying for the home health aides

because while you wait for Medicaid, your finances, just are bled dry. however

I do have Medicaid now and they're paying for my home health aides so when

my mom gave me a gift card, I thought you know what let's have some fun. this is one

thing and I got, boingy boing boingy and then here are the other things that I got. so as you can

see, I got a new hat with fluffy pom poms on there.

[shakes pom poms on hat] it does that. I just looked like the interactiveness of it. meow meow meow, I get to be a

cat. I have this, which makes a great noise. yeah, look at my purple hair [wig]. looks pretty...

have to trim... the bangs 'cus I can't really see. anyway that's it what do you

think put your comments in the comment section 'cus that's where they belong. be

good to yourself, be kind to yourself. that's why... fun fact why I end the videos with

that now. it's because, there's... there's just when I got out of the nursing home,

everything that had happened within the last like 2, 3 months or so [makes avalanche sound] like

sometimes when things are happening you can't fully emotionally process it and

part of that is it because of my brain is neurodivergent, and I process,

I don't process things in real-time but sometimes also you have to go through

survival mode like you can't stop and cry because you have to get through this

you have to somehow find a way to get through this

and so I think when I was by myself, and everything... and there was that... that

moment of calm, everything went [avalanche sound] and I was dealing with a lot of depression and a

lot of anxiety of just how fucked up things got and so that's when I started

saying "be good to yourself, be kind to yourself." I'm saying it to you but I'm

all saying it to myself anyway so that's it. um thanks for watching. bye.

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Kanye West Surprises Kim Kardashian With A $14 Million Miami Condo For Christmas: See It Here - News - Duration: 3:04.

Kanye West really outdid himself this time. The rapper surprised Kim Kardashian with a lavish $14 million Miami condo for Christmas… without her even seeing it first! Ocean views, a pool and a spa — you've got to see this!

If you thought Kim Kardashian, 38, was living large, wait until you see her new $14 million condo in Miami! Her new pad is courtesy of her husband, Kanye West, 41, who surprised her with the lavish gift for Christmas, TMZ has confirmed. And, get this — the super exclusive building where the Miami Beach condo is located, has been dubbed the "Billionaire Beach Bunker". Yeah, that sounds about right for the Kardashian/West family. SEE KIM'S MIAMI CONDO HERE.

The 18-story building is said to be the home of Miami's richest and most prominent business people, developers and high profile stars. Kimye's new unit, which Ye is weeks away from closing the deal on, is 4,700 square feet with four bedrooms, 5 1/2 baths and a massive terrace which overlooks the ocean. The Miami Beach condo building is equipped with a gym, pool and a spa.

Ye is such a gifting pro that he reportedly made an offer on the condo in secret during Miami's Art Basel, which he's a regular at each year. That means, Ye must've put in the offer sometime from December 6-9, when the event took place. And, he even got a deal on the property. While he paid $14 million, the condo was originally listed at $15.5 million. Is that seriously what a deal is considered in the celebrity world? We guess so!

The rapper's pricey purchase came just before the Kardashian annual Christmas Eve party. This year, Kimye decided to throw the big bash, under the creative direction of Ye himself. Oh, and the party was estimated to have cost a whopping $1.3 million. And, that seems to add up since the famous family turned acres of their LA land into a star-studded winter wonderland. Additionally, the party featured a tunnel of 10,000 lights designed for selfies, and a forest of fine-art tree sculptures that resembled Whoville, an expert told People. It's evident that Christmas comes with no price tag for the Kimye!

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The Tom And Jerry Show Here's Lookin A -Choo Kid #2 Top Cartoon For Kids And Children - Red Crab - Duration: 3:49.

Morning tom good to see you being secretary

Yo back inside if only ginger didn't love that cat so much you'd be I

Got it. I have a present for you really you're a sweetie

See I love cats I

present you with glory a genetically bred hypoallergenic cat

No more allergies

Rick of all, the sneaky lowdown tricks. Oh

She is a darling little thing

Oh, aren't you a sweet kitty?

Well, I'll say this glory Tom's never been able to catch him

He's gotta be here

No

You need to learn to share your things and clean up that mess mister

You are so sweet glory hmm this hot chocolates just like my grandma

You're the best glory

You wait tom shoo get yourself cleaned up

Who's a hungry Kitty

My widowed cutie. Oh when they stop baby talking. That's a bad sign

Don't worry I ain't gonna sneeze that little BOTS destroyed a dist for all of us fight back

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The FINRA Securities Helpline for Seniors - Here to Protect Investors - Duration: 0:39.

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Not Losing Weight On Calorie Deficit? It's NOT Your Fault - Here's WHY - Duration: 8:50.

What's up guys!

Carlo Macapinlac here from NewbieFitnessAcademy.com.

I help busy professionals look good shirtless so they can feel more confident and get the

most out of their lives.

And in this video, I'm gonna tell you why you're not losing weight on calorie deficit

and if you stick around until the end of the video, I'm gonna give you a proven plan

on how to break through your weight loss plateau breaker.

If you're new to the channel, make sure you hit that subscribe button to get notified

every time I post a new video every week.

Alright, let's dive in.

Okay, if you're not losing weight on calorie deficit, then you're most likely following

the classic calories in vs calories out explained.

Right?

And it's built around this idea that if you just eat a little less, a.k.a be on a

calorie deficit diet and move a little bit more, like exercise, do that over time, and

you're gonna lose weight.

And almost everyone I know including their dog has tried this method of weight loss in

some way, shape or form.

Right?

The problem is, it might work at the beginning, but then it stops working, you hit a weight

loss plateau breaker, you get frustrated, you blame yourself, and then you quit.

Sound familiar?

And that's where a lot of people find themselves.

Right?

So, the calories in calories out model while it's technically true, is almost entirely

dependent on the calories out part and the calories in makes very little difference.

And nobody talks about this part.

Because reducing the calories in, again being on a calorie deficit diet, often reduces the

calories out.

And we just make this false assumption that the calories out stays stable.

But it doesn't.

Your calories out, also known as your basal metabolic rate can actually go up or down

by as much as 50%.

In fact, according to studies done on the biggest loser contestants, you know, they

just get put on these massive calorie deficit diet and it works at the beginning.

They lose a ton of weight and everyone's happy.

Right?

The problem is, it's not sustainable.

Over time, they're still on this massive calorie deficit, and their metabolic rate

just goes to shit and they stop losing weight even though they're on a calorie deficit.

Sound familiar?

Why do you think there's never any Biggest Loser reunion?

Because most of them have gained back a lot of the weight they've lost.

And the reason for that is there's really only two places that you can get energy from.

And this is the thing that a lot of "experts" out there don't talk about is that your

body actually functions as a two compartment system.

Let me explain.

If you look at the energy that your body wants to expend just to keep you alive, you know,

keep your brain active, keep your heart pumping, keep your organs functioning, basically, your

basal metabolic rate.

Let's call it BMR for short.

Let's say your BMR is 2000 calories.

Well, there's two different places where you can get those 2000 calories.

You can get it from the food that you eat, OR, you can get it from your fat stores.

So the assumption is that if you go on a calorie deficit diet, let's say 1500 calories.

You eat 1500 calories worth of food, you'll make up the difference of 500 from your fat

stores and your 2000 calorie BMR will stay stable and therefore you're gonna lose a

pound a week and you're gonna lose 52 lbs in one year and you're gonna weigh zero

pounds in a couple of years.

(facepalm) Of course, if that was true, we'd all be walking around with a six pack.

And this is the weight loss model that we've been led to believe for decades.

And almost every body i know has done a calorie deficit diet.

And it's almost never worked for anybody for a sustainable amount of time.

Now, going back to the two compartment model.

I want you to think about your body as sort of a railway switch.

Right?

Think of a train having to go through a fork.

You can only go one of two directions.

Right?

And this is the most important concept that I want you to take away from this video.

You can either take your energy from the foods that you eat or you can take your energy from

your body fat.

You can either get it from one or the other.

Meaning you can't get a little bit from the foods you eat then get a little bit from

your body fat.

It doesn't work like that.

It's one or the other.

And the biggest determinant of this railway switch is the hormone insulin.

Whenever you eat a meal, assuming it's a blend of protein, fat, and carbs, your insulin

goes up.

All you have to remember is that if your insulin goes up, you turn off fat burning.

You're in fat storage mode.

Now, when you stop eating, your insulin levels go down, and you switch from fat storage mode

to fat burning mode.

If we're being technical here, you're switching from the fed state to the fasted

state.

You start using some of the stored energy in your body and that's the reason why you

don't die in your sleep every single night.

You've probably never thought of it like that before, haven't you?

Because as your insulin falls, you switch fuel sources and you get your energy from

stored glycogen and body fat.

So it's a pretty well run system assuming that you keep your fed and your fasted state

in balance.

And that's what you want.

You wanna have periods where you elevate your insulin levels to take in the nutrients from

the foods that you eat, but then you also wanna have periods where insulin levels are

low so you can use body fat for energy.

The problem is, that's not what happens in today's society.

Right?

6 meals a day, anyone?

Let's talk about that model real quick.

So, as you eat constantly throughout the day.

If you eat snacks, if you eat a lot of foods that are highly insulin stimulating like refined

carbs and sugar.

And that's the problem.

Most go-to snacks out there are highly processed and full of sugar like granola bars and protein

bars.

Right?

So, as you keep your insulin levels high from eating all the time and eating refined carbs

and sugar, you've switched over to this track where you can only get your energy from

the food that you eat.

Remember, you can't burn fat if your insulin levels are high.

And again, this is where a lot of people who go on a calorie deficit diet find themselves.

They're not losing weight even though they're eating less and they're on this massive

calorie deficit diet, they eat low calorie and low fat foods which are high processed,

they're hungry because those foods are not satiating, so they snack all the time, and

they end up blaming themselves for not losing weight.

Let's look at some numbers to paint a better picture here.

Let's say you go on a diet where you're on a 1500 calorie deficit diet.

But again, you're snacking all the time and you're eating a lot of refined carbs,

highly processed foods, and sugar.

If only 1500 calories are coming in, you can only burn 1500 calories.

I mentioned this earlier in that you can't just go on a calorie deficit and expect your

body to make up the difference from your fat stores.

It sounds like a great idea but your body doesn't work that way.

So your body is forced to ramp down it's metabolic rate instead.

And this is the problem with the classic calories in vs calories out model.

As you start off for example with a BMR of 2000 calories, then you go on a calorie deficit,

your body compensates for this by turning down your metabolic rate to 1500 calories.

Then let's say you eat 1700 calories because you're tired of eating so little.

Here's the crazy part.

Even though you're eating less than you did before, remember, you're only eating

1700 calories now, still lower than the original 2000, but since your metabolism has gone down

to 1500 calories, you're gonna start gaining back the weight you've lost.

So then you kinda do it again, and this is the definition of yo yo dieting.

You decide that you're gonna go on an even bigger calorie deficit.

Let's say 1200 calories which is insanely low.

But you're eating constantly, you're eating highly processed, low fat, low calorie food

which are usually loaded with sugar.

Well, now your metabolic rate has to go down to 1200.

Your body now has to start conserving energy.

It has to slow down normal body functions because there's barely any energy coming

in.

So you start to feel cold because your body isn't generating as much body heat, you

feel tired and lethargic, you're hungry all the time and you're not losing weight.

Comment below if you've ever found yourself in this situation before.

The good news is that the metabolic rate can go up as well.

But again, the key determinant of that is insulin because you have to open up those

stores of body fat for you to burn.

It's not just there for looks.

Now if you're someone who's being struggling with your weight loss efforts for years, You

know, you've tried every diet under the sun, you've gone on this calorie deficit

diet, you workout every day but you just can't seem to lose weight?

Or maybe you're feeling stuck because you've hit a weight loss plateau and you can't

seem to get out of it, you feel like life is just passing you by, you're missing out

on opportunities, and you realize that it's time to get one-on-one professional help?

Then feel free to reach out to me.

Head on over to my website, newbiefitnessacademy.com/coaching, read through the page and the success stories,

and fill out the application form for a free consultation.

If I think that we're a good fit, then I'll personally reach out to you directly.

Now if you enjoyed this video, then please give it a thumbs up and share it with your

friends.

Please subscribe to my channel if you haven't already, I post a new video every week.

And hey, leave me a comment below if you found this video helpful or if you have any questions

about this video.

Thanks so much for watching and I'll see you in the comments section.

Virtual high five!

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Everyone's here...Kinda? | (VRChat Funny Moments) (Smash Meme Parody) - Duration: 1:23.

(Papa Raggy) You won't feel so good Mr.Stark!

(Fizzy) Hi, I'm Fizzy...Zing!

(WonderWalrus) Blueboy! Ready to smash!

(Papa Raggy) Blueballs...

(WonderWalrus) FUCKING...GOD...SHIT!

(Vinny) Ah, What the hell? That's a terrible idea!

(Big Smoke) YO! IM HERE FOR CJ!

(DAKcBomb) This is DAKcBomb comedy hour!

(Indiana Bones) Who wants calcium?!

(Defalt) Begone THOT!

(Obi-Chan Kenobi) Hello there!

(KingParven) She took the Kiiids!

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The Tom And Jerry Show Here's Lookin A -Choo Kid #1 Top Cartoon For Kids And Children - Red Crab - Duration: 3:49.

Ah see you boy, hi yard is the envy of the neighborhood I dare anyone to find a weed

What's the matter boy hey wait a minute

Well, well big guy, I think you're allergic to the cat

That's ridiculous

Look at him. He ain't sneezing now. That's cuz Tom's in here. Come on

Spike's never been allergic before. Hey the same thing happened to your cousin Donna remember developed allergies to that cat occurs

Right out of the blue

That's what she sent twitches to live with your mind

If you think I'm sending Tom to my mom's you've got another thing coming what hon Tom had a great time there last year

Tom isn't going anywhere

Hey, don't get me wrong. I'd miss the little guy too

Listen, Tom just keep away from spike. Don't even let one hair get near him and this will all blow over

There your cat is giving my dog fits it's not Tom's fault

If one more

Here comes mammy

I'll get rid of myself

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Here & Now Friday December 28 2018 - Duration: 33:42.

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Here's hoping: Reasons for optimism in 2019 - Duration: 2:06.

Follow the Opinion section on Twitter @latimesopinion and Facebook If the robots are coming for your jobs, it's to help you, not replace you Forget the robot apocalypse — jobs won't vanish, human workers won't be obsolete, reliance on government checks won't become the norm

By Oren Cass Dec 28, 2018 | 3:05 AM How we can save 500,000 lives in 2019 without even trying hard Look at the 10 leading causes of death in the U

S. At least half of these could be dramatically reduced with the knowledge and technology physicians already possess

By Robert Pearl Dec 27, 2018 | 3:10 AM The power of the courts and the people can still protect immigrants' rights In 2018, a government attack on immigrants was defined by "border separation

" Courts, citizens and immigrants fought back, affirming the right to seek asylum

By Lee Gelernt Dec 26, 2018 | 3:05 AM Looking for a shred of good news on global warming? Consider the explosion of cheaper clean energy In the past decade, the cost of producing solar power has dropped 80% — a shift that is pricing dirtier energy sources like coal and natural gas out of the energy market

By Usha Lee McFarling Dec 25, 2018 | 3:05 AM Planting seeds of bipartisanship one community meeting at a time I have watched with astonishment as a grassroots movement to depolarize the country, one community at a time, has spread

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Thank you to all our supporters -- 2019, here we come! - Duration: 0:46.

As 2018 comes to a close, I can't help but feel so excited, and energized, and

inspired by all of you. 2018 has been about building the structure, the

foundation, the bones of the organization and 2019 is all about execution. We're

raising funds right now to bring on our first full-time hire and this person's

going to run and implement the community building events, the leadership skills and

personal resilience training, and our mentorship program. Thank you to all of

you who have given, who have supported us, who have shared our posts on social

media. We would not be the organization we are without you. Thank you for all

that you've done and please consider a donation to Encompass this year.